(londen)
I am abused by the beats
Behind its words
Yelled at by the violin
Laying upon his shoulders
R&B hates me
But hip hop said he loves me Took me back to the 80's When N.W.A molded my attitude Before Brenda hated her baby Searching for a friend In Public and found an Enemy He told me to fight the power.... Since then ive been losing.
(Janae)
You been losing, but.....
Hip hop in some way has turned it's back on us.....
Making us believe that these rapers
Were using lyrical content in there own creative way to shoot through are brain weaves, but really hip hop your more like a life style changing everyday......
what happen to you message? now we got little girls shaking there asses!
But.......
Right befor people changed,
Tupac had us bumping changes.
I traded in my old love for some soul r&b shooting through my veins like a old shcool drugie.
I'm starting to love u more like my jeep.....
What happen to u r Kelly?
Let's take is back to keith sweat nobody can love you better
Cuz music is my savor..
You saved me when the beat tryed to choke me u put the flavor back into my mouth, let's all sing, love is a melody formed into music I'm in love with u r&b......
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
ya wouldnt understand
he played the part of a princess,
As he dressed himself up in his Sunday best.....
Ready to tackle whatever may come his way.
She wore black gloves,
Painted her face,
Wore red lickstick....
(Savored the taste)
He strapped on his black boots,
Put a plastic bag in his back seat.....
She yelled out, love me!
Or relax 6 feet...
He screamed, he's in love!
She told him he was telln storys!
He got down on bended knee,
Bent her head back kissed her softy,
She grabbed his head pushed him away...........
Said nobody not nobody is worthy of my love today!
He yelled bipolor!!!!!!!
As she unlocked her Safe!
He grabbed a knife while she cocked her 38.....
He dropes to his knees.......
Shots fire silents became the loudest sound of reality.
He Wore blood to his church road off In a black casket.
As she ran away
An disapeared in a black mask.
It took 5 mins for her to realize that her love was as bipolor as it gets.....
One day she was in love, an then came the next.
All she needed was medicine when all she thought she needed was a good man.
But instead she took his life and moved on to the next Ken!
She played the part of a princess
And left him dressed in his Sundays best rip good men!
As he dressed himself up in his Sunday best.....
Ready to tackle whatever may come his way.
She wore black gloves,
Painted her face,
Wore red lickstick....
(Savored the taste)
He strapped on his black boots,
Put a plastic bag in his back seat.....
She yelled out, love me!
Or relax 6 feet...
He screamed, he's in love!
She told him he was telln storys!
He got down on bended knee,
Bent her head back kissed her softy,
She grabbed his head pushed him away...........
Said nobody not nobody is worthy of my love today!
He yelled bipolor!!!!!!!
As she unlocked her Safe!
He grabbed a knife while she cocked her 38.....
He dropes to his knees.......
Shots fire silents became the loudest sound of reality.
He Wore blood to his church road off In a black casket.
As she ran away
An disapeared in a black mask.
It took 5 mins for her to realize that her love was as bipolor as it gets.....
One day she was in love, an then came the next.
All she needed was medicine when all she thought she needed was a good man.
But instead she took his life and moved on to the next Ken!
She played the part of a princess
And left him dressed in his Sundays best rip good men!
brother
Oh brother......
What could I say to you to bring us closer?
What would be your reaction, if I sat you down an expressed to you like real siblings do?
Would you wear a smile of a clown?
Or genuinely walk around happy that you and your sister are now at peace with one another.....
You see brother,
I feel like you an I are one piece, but missing important pieces...
We shared the same womb at one point; I came after you, which makes me, want to follow your footsteps...
But I refuse to follow footsteps I can hardly see!
It's like I sleep in the same room as the enemy!!!
We share the same mom and dad
And even though we don't talk much I know your Hurt, cause believe it or not brother I'm Hurting too.
You displayed another generation of life, an I feel like your son has brought little tiny piece of us together....
But what's together when are hearts are apart?
An what's apart when half of me is hiding in the dark?
And what's the dark without a light?
You see brother I'm
Trying to find the right light to brighten are relationship, but I haven't stumbled over the right set of batteries, nor could I dig thru my dignity an find the right way to use my pen to allow u to listen......
Until this moment.....
See brother
At the end of the day we are all we got,
And I'm
Hating it!!!
Got a sister brother......
Can't even tell u her last name!
Can't even tell u were she stays! An deep down I know that shit plays in your head...
Why couldn't dad be a dad and keep us all aligned?
They say family is important but u know like I know we don't know WTF family stands for!
Fam(ily)
I love you!
Yes brother we are all we have now......
(Moms got to live her life too)
So no matter what bridge your standing at an u feel like you’re about to jump, pick up the phone an call me.
If your about to cry cuz all u need is someone to listen, pick up the phone an call me.
If your stranded in the middle of know where an can't remember your way, home pick up the phone an I well track your destination down.
Cuz believe it or not brother I well not allow u to drown!
But, sad thing about this brother is u have a problem, that’s too big for you to admit! So until you fix it you and I well never have a healthy relationship!
(But something been bugging me too)
Ohh Brother I should of saved u before it was too late.....
I should have caught you before you took the enemies hand!
I should of let you know before u hit the ground....
I should of never let mom
Cry on those lonely nights when she was worried about u!
While I was taking care of your son, I should have told her everything was going to be ok.
But I had no words to say, so I let U step out not realizing it was to late to save you.
But mom needed to cry so that she can let go of the guilt she had inside..
(always blaming herself)
And you never even once told her you were sorry!
But I allowed mom to forget about what bugged me, and concentrate on you ...........
Missing a father we both never had! An I know u think that's not your problem but u and I both know it is!
And I know you remember all the words that were said from mom to dad, and all the times mom had to drag us out the car when it wasn’t her weekend,
So don't think your hard cuz I remember counting the tears that ran down your cheeks.
You had a ninja turtle bed, and me, beauty n the beast until we were 13! That’s how well dad kept up always thinking we were going to just be his babies......
And remember every time we would see him; he'd say how big we got? Probably because he never learned how to keep up, and never learned how to love us properly.
That's why consistence is a very important key in my life,
Cuz I’ve never had consistency....
And if you want to grow brother you got to learn how to let go...
And the key to success is perpetration,
Learning that nothing well be handed to you brother you got to work until your fingertips become torpid!
Almost until u can taste the blood from
Deep down in your soul, u got to search for the better parts of you step outside your element an reboot your self esteem, cuz I know what your weakness is.
You think your stupid!
But WTF does stupid really mean?
We are all gods children so there for we are as smart as we can be, never let anyone tell u u can't do something.
Let me stop there brother before you get to carried away, cuz u an I both know I'm far from perfect, I'm perfectly imperfect cuz this is how god made me, so there for I'm everything he created me to be so why would I ever let Any other human being put me down?
I'm
Trying to get you to understand brother, silent’s is the loudest sound...
So I hope you don't find it crazy that at night I can't sleep, cuz I can hear u screaming to be found!
(I'm just looking for my bother)
Loneliness hurts but they say it’s also good for you
If you have any information please let me know now, before it's to late to create a bond!
Brother......
What could I say to you to bring us closer?
What would be your reaction, if I sat you down an expressed to you like real siblings do?
Would you wear a smile of a clown?
Or genuinely walk around happy that you and your sister are now at peace with one another.....
You see brother,
I feel like you an I are one piece, but missing important pieces...
We shared the same womb at one point; I came after you, which makes me, want to follow your footsteps...
But I refuse to follow footsteps I can hardly see!
It's like I sleep in the same room as the enemy!!!
We share the same mom and dad
And even though we don't talk much I know your Hurt, cause believe it or not brother I'm Hurting too.
You displayed another generation of life, an I feel like your son has brought little tiny piece of us together....
But what's together when are hearts are apart?
An what's apart when half of me is hiding in the dark?
And what's the dark without a light?
You see brother I'm
Trying to find the right light to brighten are relationship, but I haven't stumbled over the right set of batteries, nor could I dig thru my dignity an find the right way to use my pen to allow u to listen......
Until this moment.....
See brother
At the end of the day we are all we got,
And I'm
Hating it!!!
Got a sister brother......
Can't even tell u her last name!
Can't even tell u were she stays! An deep down I know that shit plays in your head...
Why couldn't dad be a dad and keep us all aligned?
They say family is important but u know like I know we don't know WTF family stands for!
Fam(ily)
I love you!
Yes brother we are all we have now......
(Moms got to live her life too)
So no matter what bridge your standing at an u feel like you’re about to jump, pick up the phone an call me.
If your about to cry cuz all u need is someone to listen, pick up the phone an call me.
If your stranded in the middle of know where an can't remember your way, home pick up the phone an I well track your destination down.
Cuz believe it or not brother I well not allow u to drown!
But, sad thing about this brother is u have a problem, that’s too big for you to admit! So until you fix it you and I well never have a healthy relationship!
(But something been bugging me too)
Ohh Brother I should of saved u before it was too late.....
I should have caught you before you took the enemies hand!
I should of let you know before u hit the ground....
I should of never let mom
Cry on those lonely nights when she was worried about u!
While I was taking care of your son, I should have told her everything was going to be ok.
But I had no words to say, so I let U step out not realizing it was to late to save you.
But mom needed to cry so that she can let go of the guilt she had inside..
(always blaming herself)
And you never even once told her you were sorry!
But I allowed mom to forget about what bugged me, and concentrate on you ...........
Missing a father we both never had! An I know u think that's not your problem but u and I both know it is!
And I know you remember all the words that were said from mom to dad, and all the times mom had to drag us out the car when it wasn’t her weekend,
So don't think your hard cuz I remember counting the tears that ran down your cheeks.
You had a ninja turtle bed, and me, beauty n the beast until we were 13! That’s how well dad kept up always thinking we were going to just be his babies......
And remember every time we would see him; he'd say how big we got? Probably because he never learned how to keep up, and never learned how to love us properly.
That's why consistence is a very important key in my life,
Cuz I’ve never had consistency....
And if you want to grow brother you got to learn how to let go...
And the key to success is perpetration,
Learning that nothing well be handed to you brother you got to work until your fingertips become torpid!
Almost until u can taste the blood from
Deep down in your soul, u got to search for the better parts of you step outside your element an reboot your self esteem, cuz I know what your weakness is.
You think your stupid!
But WTF does stupid really mean?
We are all gods children so there for we are as smart as we can be, never let anyone tell u u can't do something.
Let me stop there brother before you get to carried away, cuz u an I both know I'm far from perfect, I'm perfectly imperfect cuz this is how god made me, so there for I'm everything he created me to be so why would I ever let Any other human being put me down?
I'm
Trying to get you to understand brother, silent’s is the loudest sound...
So I hope you don't find it crazy that at night I can't sleep, cuz I can hear u screaming to be found!
(I'm just looking for my bother)
Loneliness hurts but they say it’s also good for you
If you have any information please let me know now, before it's to late to create a bond!
Brother......
mental
Scared freckles jumped off the faces of ppl with no exapression.
Tears held rallys at the tip of there noses,
And with my looking eye I could taste the fears placed upon there faces........
Bloody hands frm griping life, holding each memory tight!
(Here's a little insight)
He loved taking the trash out it was the only time he went outside.......
She jumped out of her skin,
Took her spirit to church knowing with her sin...................
She felt nobody would forgive them,but god....
Hes use to salen his toys in front of his house to the kids playing bball,
Cause
It was the only way he could eat when his tummy started to rumble.
She use to walk the streets looking for her mother in every alley.....
She use to wait by the phone every other hour for her father to call her collect......
Go fucking figuer
He use to reach for his moms love all he needed was a hug....
But her distraction
Misunderstood her sons actions,
So she would slap um instead!
She use to hold Barbie dolls at night an cry...........
He use to hide under his covers at night with a flash light..........
Tears held rallys at the tip of there noses,
And with my looking eye I could taste the fears placed upon there faces........
Bloody hands frm griping life, holding each memory tight!
(Here's a little insight)
He loved taking the trash out it was the only time he went outside.......
She jumped out of her skin,
Took her spirit to church knowing with her sin...................
She felt nobody would forgive them,but god....
Hes use to salen his toys in front of his house to the kids playing bball,
Cause
It was the only way he could eat when his tummy started to rumble.
She use to walk the streets looking for her mother in every alley.....
She use to wait by the phone every other hour for her father to call her collect......
Go fucking figuer
He use to reach for his moms love all he needed was a hug....
But her distraction
Misunderstood her sons actions,
So she would slap um instead!
She use to hold Barbie dolls at night an cry...........
He use to hide under his covers at night with a flash light..........
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
glides
She glides gracefully.
Tastefully fitted. An implied sign that reads
"No losers admitted"
She’s uplifted an admitted into insanities
4 walls
Scratching, sniffing, and screaming!
Just trying to catch a glimpse of freedom b4 her life slips.
Even though the chains reflected her life decisions, she always stays 3 steps behind his hands
And 2 step above the influence.
His hands,
To slow to catch her,
But his desire?
Eager to match her speed.
He’d get her better in her dreams
When she sleeps
And even in her dreams she weeps, crying out for help yet nobody seems,
Or seeks, jus a old game of hide an seek (no finder)
The prophesy.
Self fulfilling.
Cuz u must be willing to trust.
And be trusted.
And in order to co sign on someone’s dependence,
U must learn how to love unconditionally.
But what’s unconditional mean to a human being that has been
Showed nothing but abuse? shackled under the wings
Of UN pretty things, and
Multiplied by the things subtracted into life’s bean stock
Of mistakes she’s made.
He locked her up
An threw away the key!
What if her decision affected her family?
Drove by, shot 9 times
Now the tragedy lies in the soul of a battered
Spirit without a body.
………………………
Placing her chest up against the walls,
Put her ear up against the stall
Maybe she can feel alive if she counts her heart beat.
She stays alive just for her weekend visits,
Its The only contact she has with the outside world.
Staying emotionally aware of her mistakes,
But being aware that her innocents is irrelevant,
An that no freedom is coming soon!
So like a caged bird she chirps, an sings!
While everyone stands around watches her bleed!
Tastefully fitted. An implied sign that reads
"No losers admitted"
She’s uplifted an admitted into insanities
4 walls
Scratching, sniffing, and screaming!
Just trying to catch a glimpse of freedom b4 her life slips.
Even though the chains reflected her life decisions, she always stays 3 steps behind his hands
And 2 step above the influence.
His hands,
To slow to catch her,
But his desire?
Eager to match her speed.
He’d get her better in her dreams
When she sleeps
And even in her dreams she weeps, crying out for help yet nobody seems,
Or seeks, jus a old game of hide an seek (no finder)
The prophesy.
Self fulfilling.
Cuz u must be willing to trust.
And be trusted.
And in order to co sign on someone’s dependence,
U must learn how to love unconditionally.
But what’s unconditional mean to a human being that has been
Showed nothing but abuse? shackled under the wings
Of UN pretty things, and
Multiplied by the things subtracted into life’s bean stock
Of mistakes she’s made.
He locked her up
An threw away the key!
What if her decision affected her family?
Drove by, shot 9 times
Now the tragedy lies in the soul of a battered
Spirit without a body.
………………………
Placing her chest up against the walls,
Put her ear up against the stall
Maybe she can feel alive if she counts her heart beat.
She stays alive just for her weekend visits,
Its The only contact she has with the outside world.
Staying emotionally aware of her mistakes,
But being aware that her innocents is irrelevant,
An that no freedom is coming soon!
So like a caged bird she chirps, an sings!
While everyone stands around watches her bleed!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
clabo me an kesh kesh (untitled)
My thumb ran across
The pages of peoples faces
As the palm of my right hand
Held the binder of their spine
But the beauty of their cover
Wasn't you
Stick in hand, egg shelled colored eyes
In special need...im blind
Now I read the dots
Trying to connect these spots....
But connecting dots
reconecting
recollecting
these life pictures we framed improparly
painted lifes wash colors of poverty
so holding one together isnt an option for you
when falling apart is all we are use to
super glue minded
it's like were stuck in last nights time so worry about yesterdays crime unable to rewind lifes tape deck to start over
I pressed rewind
Causing my screams
To yell at my throat
As the bullet shot backwards
Making love to my chest
I remembered the meaning
To this beat box of ones heart beat
Please don't stop singing
An if you u stop singing plz
continue the humming I can't live another day without ur remedy
an everytime my heart stops
I dial 3 numbers
screaming for help an the only person that comes to my rescue always happeneds to be you
You rescued my body
Leaving behind its outline
On my frost bitten floor
As a reminder where to land
Where to land
When I fall for you again
Landing up on all of my reasons
Simply loving you
It's hard to say
that when I held u all nite
I woke up numb matter
fact I think I had
frost bite
I laid out all the reasson why I loved you 3of
them reminded me of why we never made it threw
but tha other 5 five kept me high enough to not realize what loving u can do to the human body
I subtracted the lack of comunication all cuz of a
4letter word
kept me blind to the fact that i thought one day ud end up loving me the way I do
Communication slipped through
Our lips
Because our souls breathed
The right words
As the cracks of my hands
Failed the saphocating
To the breath of your past pain
Lets click our broken glass
To the fallen tears
Toast to your identity
Oh how I Love you
Oh how I Love you,
My unedited book...
Oh how I love you
Is that menskill
more then a fragment
of why I'm still here
Of why my tears tattoo the meaning of crystal clear
This shit is diamond cut
no more rough around the edges
ur my diamond in a rough I wouldn't trade in ur exsistance
U took my heart off eBay in a war full of falln bids
Forgiveness
an in my watch I have time to perfect this
Cuz I think your so worth it.
Oh how I love the things you do
Oh how I love to be in love with you
The pages of peoples faces
As the palm of my right hand
Held the binder of their spine
But the beauty of their cover
Wasn't you
Stick in hand, egg shelled colored eyes
In special need...im blind
Now I read the dots
Trying to connect these spots....
But connecting dots
reconecting
recollecting
these life pictures we framed improparly
painted lifes wash colors of poverty
so holding one together isnt an option for you
when falling apart is all we are use to
super glue minded
it's like were stuck in last nights time so worry about yesterdays crime unable to rewind lifes tape deck to start over
I pressed rewind
Causing my screams
To yell at my throat
As the bullet shot backwards
Making love to my chest
I remembered the meaning
To this beat box of ones heart beat
Please don't stop singing
An if you u stop singing plz
continue the humming I can't live another day without ur remedy
an everytime my heart stops
I dial 3 numbers
screaming for help an the only person that comes to my rescue always happeneds to be you
You rescued my body
Leaving behind its outline
On my frost bitten floor
As a reminder where to land
Where to land
When I fall for you again
Landing up on all of my reasons
Simply loving you
It's hard to say
that when I held u all nite
I woke up numb matter
fact I think I had
frost bite
I laid out all the reasson why I loved you 3of
them reminded me of why we never made it threw
but tha other 5 five kept me high enough to not realize what loving u can do to the human body
I subtracted the lack of comunication all cuz of a
4letter word
kept me blind to the fact that i thought one day ud end up loving me the way I do
Communication slipped through
Our lips
Because our souls breathed
The right words
As the cracks of my hands
Failed the saphocating
To the breath of your past pain
Lets click our broken glass
To the fallen tears
Toast to your identity
Oh how I Love you
Oh how I Love you,
My unedited book...
Oh how I love you
Is that menskill
more then a fragment
of why I'm still here
Of why my tears tattoo the meaning of crystal clear
This shit is diamond cut
no more rough around the edges
ur my diamond in a rough I wouldn't trade in ur exsistance
U took my heart off eBay in a war full of falln bids
Forgiveness
an in my watch I have time to perfect this
Cuz I think your so worth it.
Oh how I love the things you do
Oh how I love to be in love with you
Friday, April 30, 2010
endless memorys
I’ve died 4 times
Lived more then a few times
They say im wise
I say im beyond that
I’ve died 4 times
An dreamed of an UN known kind
Lived life as a local dime
Collecting dollars
Creating crime
I’ve hidden my image for more then 5 years
Never was really understood by my peers
Counted my tears on the pillow cases of his pillow cases
Prayed prayers my mama use to pray
An sat down with my grandma an discussed shit about being gay
Wrote stories of wonder land searching for my Alice
Told love stories like a book taking notes
Hanging from fairs wheels
Of her heart
Crying my dying fears melting my paper jus so their ears
Could hear what everyone else was missing
I’ve never really gave my self the time I was given
Use a clock without a stop watch never put new batteries in it
So my time always was ended 420
I use to smoke to clear my mind
I never was given the guidance to walk to the front of the line
I crawl behind
Placed a mask over my face an put on a front instead of being fake
I use to use my attitude to scare away the bad revenue
Never was fucked with in high school
Always was the number one topic
Like did u see was she had on short skirt?
I can almost see her tong
All the dudes liked what I was doing
I use to change my image
Ran marathons I never gave a shit about wtf he or she was on
I use to fuck this white boy
Used him as my white toy
Smoked weed until my mama came
Ditched school cuz I was sick an tired of that shit man
Then I met a dude an boy was he a hurricane
Breaking news punched in the stomach
Pain became my new life style
Never thought about shit like if this was worth my while
Purified his anger an poured kerosene on the fire
U think ima let him beat me to the wire
Biting my finger nails how do u retire
Loved my son with more then I had in me
I couldn’t afford wtf he was doing to me
Despite the outside look
I was really dien inside
Hiding under glasses jus to hide my eyes
Never opened my mouth unless he told me to speak
Never walked the streets innless he gave me the sheets
Never left the house dirty
Cuz it was lil things like that
That made him beat me until morning
I thought I found love but all I found was pain
I thought he loved me all cuz he tattooed my name
So naive to how he was playn me
Until I stood on my own feet an stop walking on my fucking tippy toes
Flat grounded fuck u only god knows
I had a convo with god last night
He gave me the power to get up an fight
I’ve been thru hell an that’s why ive died 4 times an cam back
Smiled in the devils face
Sprinting thru this devilish race
Wrote a book
Told my poetry
Really how hell taste
Now im into female’s cuz of one mans illiterateness
An now I look in the mirror wit discuss
I never wanted to be the daughter that has to tell her mama
Im gay cuz a man beat me until I was almost
Oblivious
But fuck it cuz god dealt me my cards an forgot the chips
Ima get this regardless
Lived more then a few times
They say im wise
I say im beyond that
I’ve died 4 times
An dreamed of an UN known kind
Lived life as a local dime
Collecting dollars
Creating crime
I’ve hidden my image for more then 5 years
Never was really understood by my peers
Counted my tears on the pillow cases of his pillow cases
Prayed prayers my mama use to pray
An sat down with my grandma an discussed shit about being gay
Wrote stories of wonder land searching for my Alice
Told love stories like a book taking notes
Hanging from fairs wheels
Of her heart
Crying my dying fears melting my paper jus so their ears
Could hear what everyone else was missing
I’ve never really gave my self the time I was given
Use a clock without a stop watch never put new batteries in it
So my time always was ended 420
I use to smoke to clear my mind
I never was given the guidance to walk to the front of the line
I crawl behind
Placed a mask over my face an put on a front instead of being fake
I use to use my attitude to scare away the bad revenue
Never was fucked with in high school
Always was the number one topic
Like did u see was she had on short skirt?
I can almost see her tong
All the dudes liked what I was doing
I use to change my image
Ran marathons I never gave a shit about wtf he or she was on
I use to fuck this white boy
Used him as my white toy
Smoked weed until my mama came
Ditched school cuz I was sick an tired of that shit man
Then I met a dude an boy was he a hurricane
Breaking news punched in the stomach
Pain became my new life style
Never thought about shit like if this was worth my while
Purified his anger an poured kerosene on the fire
U think ima let him beat me to the wire
Biting my finger nails how do u retire
Loved my son with more then I had in me
I couldn’t afford wtf he was doing to me
Despite the outside look
I was really dien inside
Hiding under glasses jus to hide my eyes
Never opened my mouth unless he told me to speak
Never walked the streets innless he gave me the sheets
Never left the house dirty
Cuz it was lil things like that
That made him beat me until morning
I thought I found love but all I found was pain
I thought he loved me all cuz he tattooed my name
So naive to how he was playn me
Until I stood on my own feet an stop walking on my fucking tippy toes
Flat grounded fuck u only god knows
I had a convo with god last night
He gave me the power to get up an fight
I’ve been thru hell an that’s why ive died 4 times an cam back
Smiled in the devils face
Sprinting thru this devilish race
Wrote a book
Told my poetry
Really how hell taste
Now im into female’s cuz of one mans illiterateness
An now I look in the mirror wit discuss
I never wanted to be the daughter that has to tell her mama
Im gay cuz a man beat me until I was almost
Oblivious
But fuck it cuz god dealt me my cards an forgot the chips
Ima get this regardless
Monday, April 12, 2010
so mysterious
(So mysterious)
Eyes, an a smile that shackled Ur mind!
She was into everything Ur pussy might... "like"
Creeping through the night
Gathering change for (hope) that won’t come
Anytime soon, cuz expired residue
Scraped from pipes she smoked jus to get high.....
(So mysterious)
Peeping tom into her bedroom
Tying him up dancing then robbing him for a few bucks!
Then turning tom off like a light switch
Never knew one day he’d come back for this bitch!!!!
(So mysterious)
She wked the same fucking corner, dropped her 2 yr old son off
At the other corner, an sold her pussy
For 5 dollars!
"She’s stupid some say"
But to her she was jus doing what she thought was right....
Ignorant, but so mysterious
Everything inside her boiled likes hot water,
Lil voices in her head beat her dead to where
Her thoughts whispered silent!!!!!!!!
So she kept being mysterious an never agreed to change......
(So mysterious)
She jus turned 18
An already is dien from aids!
She jus turned 18 an already has a baby!
She jus turned 18 an already had a run in wit the law!
She just turned 18 an never had a mother to slap her raw!
She just turned 18 and is addicted to drugs!!!
(So mysterious)
no kisses an huggs......
So many tears in this
so she turned to drugs......
So many times she’s prayed to god
So many whys????
An so many life’s she’s infected
So many minds she fucked yet soo many crys......
She’s 18 an yet so lost inside!
Locked in her own mental assumptions
Vased her flower an watched it grow into something she abused
For money...
Never watered her seed correctly,
Planted her life into a dirty wash
Pour bleach into her soul
Yet nobody to consol her.
Nobody to hold her,
The only love she thought was right was what these men gave her.
(So mysterious)
Her mama gave her up
At 14 told her the only thing shed be good at was
Gold digging!
and Layn on her back shown her pussy for a lil crack!
An every time she looked her son in his eyes she
Went back, way back, to the time her mama told her shed never be shit!
Pondering how a mother could say such mean things
Wondering why god dealt her cards with the devil on them
Searching threw her deck
Flipping over tricks to make sense.
But she’s so mysterious
Cuz everything shed learned has something to do wit the streets
An now that she’s dien wit aids
Shed gotta find a home for her son
So one day he don’t wake up an see that she didn’t make it
To be 21!
(So mysterious)
(Loaded)
(Pulls back )
Gun shots!!!!
Blood splatters..................
Tears hit with silent
All she wanted was some guidance
But suicide always played a huge role on her list
She was soooooo fucking mysterious!
Eyes, an a smile that shackled Ur mind!
She was into everything Ur pussy might... "like"
Creeping through the night
Gathering change for (hope) that won’t come
Anytime soon, cuz expired residue
Scraped from pipes she smoked jus to get high.....
(So mysterious)
Peeping tom into her bedroom
Tying him up dancing then robbing him for a few bucks!
Then turning tom off like a light switch
Never knew one day he’d come back for this bitch!!!!
(So mysterious)
She wked the same fucking corner, dropped her 2 yr old son off
At the other corner, an sold her pussy
For 5 dollars!
"She’s stupid some say"
But to her she was jus doing what she thought was right....
Ignorant, but so mysterious
Everything inside her boiled likes hot water,
Lil voices in her head beat her dead to where
Her thoughts whispered silent!!!!!!!!
So she kept being mysterious an never agreed to change......
(So mysterious)
She jus turned 18
An already is dien from aids!
She jus turned 18 an already has a baby!
She jus turned 18 an already had a run in wit the law!
She just turned 18 an never had a mother to slap her raw!
She just turned 18 and is addicted to drugs!!!
(So mysterious)
no kisses an huggs......
So many tears in this
so she turned to drugs......
So many times she’s prayed to god
So many whys????
An so many life’s she’s infected
So many minds she fucked yet soo many crys......
She’s 18 an yet so lost inside!
Locked in her own mental assumptions
Vased her flower an watched it grow into something she abused
For money...
Never watered her seed correctly,
Planted her life into a dirty wash
Pour bleach into her soul
Yet nobody to consol her.
Nobody to hold her,
The only love she thought was right was what these men gave her.
(So mysterious)
Her mama gave her up
At 14 told her the only thing shed be good at was
Gold digging!
and Layn on her back shown her pussy for a lil crack!
An every time she looked her son in his eyes she
Went back, way back, to the time her mama told her shed never be shit!
Pondering how a mother could say such mean things
Wondering why god dealt her cards with the devil on them
Searching threw her deck
Flipping over tricks to make sense.
But she’s so mysterious
Cuz everything shed learned has something to do wit the streets
An now that she’s dien wit aids
Shed gotta find a home for her son
So one day he don’t wake up an see that she didn’t make it
To be 21!
(So mysterious)
(Loaded)
(Pulls back )
Gun shots!!!!
Blood splatters..................
Tears hit with silent
All she wanted was some guidance
But suicide always played a huge role on her list
She was soooooo fucking mysterious!
Monday, March 29, 2010
livng inside a devil
Loving u was like the first time I learn how to tie my shoes
I know crazy comparison
But to be honest it was just that easy
Fucking u was like a wood pile of sticks an stones
I knew id trip an land in-between 2 tights with spread hips
Tasting Ur poison
Like a high I couldn’t get rid of months later I still had the drips
Pupil’s blacker then night
When I looked u in the eyes
I knew for a life time I was stuck
But so affair to this love affair
I thought romance left a stale smell in the air so I
Ate the old bag of chips and washed it down
When Ur rotten lies
An all the shit u fed me at night
Loving u was like watching the sun rise
At first it was beautiful but after awhile it started to burn my insides
Ur extensive words left my heart melting stumbling over UN used verbs
Being verbal turned into physical
I just couldn’t get a grip on things
It was like leaving u when my phone rings
Walking into a another room jus to catch a tone of things
I couldn’t stand the sweet bitter smell of her sent
It was like heaven but I was burning in hell
I was fucking the devil
Residing in jail
I couldn’t see myself in a orange jump suit
Jailed because love locked me in a cage an listen to me sing
But never once sang with me
But any who
Who would have ever knew that
Loving u was as easy an cooking soup
I watched the water boil then threw in the noodles
An watched them until threw brew
An when eating u I always burnt my Tung
But even then I just couldn’t get enough of u.
It was Ur intense sexual drive
That drove me into a few trees that night
Killing me internally
Brain fucking me mentally
I fell inside of love
An even if u tried to dig for me
good luck
I lived inside
Her cold heart
Suffering from frost bite
And dying from neglect
I once lived for her smile an would die for her touch
Now I live for a resurrection an pray
That god doesn’t turn me down
When its time to hop in a casket an start my new judgment
Loving u was jus that simple
But being wit u forever was like
Living in a huge circle.
I know crazy comparison
But to be honest it was just that easy
Fucking u was like a wood pile of sticks an stones
I knew id trip an land in-between 2 tights with spread hips
Tasting Ur poison
Like a high I couldn’t get rid of months later I still had the drips
Pupil’s blacker then night
When I looked u in the eyes
I knew for a life time I was stuck
But so affair to this love affair
I thought romance left a stale smell in the air so I
Ate the old bag of chips and washed it down
When Ur rotten lies
An all the shit u fed me at night
Loving u was like watching the sun rise
At first it was beautiful but after awhile it started to burn my insides
Ur extensive words left my heart melting stumbling over UN used verbs
Being verbal turned into physical
I just couldn’t get a grip on things
It was like leaving u when my phone rings
Walking into a another room jus to catch a tone of things
I couldn’t stand the sweet bitter smell of her sent
It was like heaven but I was burning in hell
I was fucking the devil
Residing in jail
I couldn’t see myself in a orange jump suit
Jailed because love locked me in a cage an listen to me sing
But never once sang with me
But any who
Who would have ever knew that
Loving u was as easy an cooking soup
I watched the water boil then threw in the noodles
An watched them until threw brew
An when eating u I always burnt my Tung
But even then I just couldn’t get enough of u.
It was Ur intense sexual drive
That drove me into a few trees that night
Killing me internally
Brain fucking me mentally
I fell inside of love
An even if u tried to dig for me
good luck
I lived inside
Her cold heart
Suffering from frost bite
And dying from neglect
I once lived for her smile an would die for her touch
Now I live for a resurrection an pray
That god doesn’t turn me down
When its time to hop in a casket an start my new judgment
Loving u was jus that simple
But being wit u forever was like
Living in a huge circle.
Monday, February 22, 2010
stop complaining
Complaining should be a job title!
Cause if so we’d all be rich right?
I bet u we never be late, but always be on time.
If complaining was the source too making money
We’d all being driven around that Bentley buying jewelry, Taken snap shots of our riches,
Complaining about how he didn't buy you a Gucci bag or one of them flashy rings u place on the left hand!
Like when did money buy love? Since when did telling someone “I love you” become a chore? And complaining about how u. Gotta get up an go to school in the morning! If
complaining educated u then we’d have free schooling! An no teacher to teach u fools, How to read! Look up education cuz complaining is a disease!
Complaining takes up time An I bet if love was all about complaining
an as potent as dew melting on Ur car windows
At 5am, we’d complain we couldn't see our souls threw are lovers eyes instead of feeling wit our finger tips and trying shit that's new!
Complaining about when sunrises shines threw Ur window and blinds Ur sight waking u. complaining about how Ur son lost his game last night
Then at the same time driven by a homeless sign…….
Contemplating…… (There sane)
Complaining about how there making our streets “ghetto” but not doing shit to speed the time Not donating a dime to help the need!!!!
An support someone who's not complaining about superficial shit they jus wanna eat!.
Pushing shopping carts of wet dirty sheets,
Digging thru trash cans to find food to eat,
Sitting on exits of freeways Questioning there destiny’s with a change box holding there dinner Money….
Rolling windows up cuz Ur complaining u had a rough day at work!
”An u don’t wanna be bothered by anybody”
only thinking about ourselves an reassuring ourselves that this dude begs everyday for change an being handed the cards dealt he stands there an weaves with a smile on his face! an what do we do we turn the radio up an look the other way complaining about how this fucking red light hasn't changed!!
Were so selfish!
That it should be a sickness an complaining is our life’s tt. United we stand divided we fall so I'm know were fucking surprised that 2012 is coming cuz we all divided many yrs ago fighting wars not worth fighting for Not helping ppl when they clearly needed ur help so as we fall we as ppl shouldn't shed tears no hands being grabbed just us running for our riches 4getting that the poor dose exists!
But trust me crying won't fix anything an neither well complaining so when that day comes embrace it…. (It was the ppl not Mother Nature!)
Stop complaining it won't educate
stop complaining an be great full!
Cause if so we’d all be rich right?
I bet u we never be late, but always be on time.
If complaining was the source too making money
We’d all being driven around that Bentley buying jewelry, Taken snap shots of our riches,
Complaining about how he didn't buy you a Gucci bag or one of them flashy rings u place on the left hand!
Like when did money buy love? Since when did telling someone “I love you” become a chore? And complaining about how u. Gotta get up an go to school in the morning! If
complaining educated u then we’d have free schooling! An no teacher to teach u fools, How to read! Look up education cuz complaining is a disease!
Complaining takes up time An I bet if love was all about complaining
an as potent as dew melting on Ur car windows
At 5am, we’d complain we couldn't see our souls threw are lovers eyes instead of feeling wit our finger tips and trying shit that's new!
Complaining about when sunrises shines threw Ur window and blinds Ur sight waking u. complaining about how Ur son lost his game last night
Then at the same time driven by a homeless sign…….
Contemplating…… (There sane)
Complaining about how there making our streets “ghetto” but not doing shit to speed the time Not donating a dime to help the need!!!!
An support someone who's not complaining about superficial shit they jus wanna eat!.
Pushing shopping carts of wet dirty sheets,
Digging thru trash cans to find food to eat,
Sitting on exits of freeways Questioning there destiny’s with a change box holding there dinner Money….
Rolling windows up cuz Ur complaining u had a rough day at work!
”An u don’t wanna be bothered by anybody”
only thinking about ourselves an reassuring ourselves that this dude begs everyday for change an being handed the cards dealt he stands there an weaves with a smile on his face! an what do we do we turn the radio up an look the other way complaining about how this fucking red light hasn't changed!!
Were so selfish!
That it should be a sickness an complaining is our life’s tt. United we stand divided we fall so I'm know were fucking surprised that 2012 is coming cuz we all divided many yrs ago fighting wars not worth fighting for Not helping ppl when they clearly needed ur help so as we fall we as ppl shouldn't shed tears no hands being grabbed just us running for our riches 4getting that the poor dose exists!
But trust me crying won't fix anything an neither well complaining so when that day comes embrace it…. (It was the ppl not Mother Nature!)
Stop complaining it won't educate
stop complaining an be great full!
Friday, January 8, 2010
perfect stranger
“Perfect stranger”
I mixed pure satisfaction
With flawless nothings,
Produced a stranger that
Touched me.
I approached her
With a hand
Opened my door told her to get in.
She was a stranger to my eyes, but to my soul
Equaled a total of
100%.
I knew her smile from some place heaven sent,
An she was so perfect……
There had to be another life I was stuck in!
Cuz our conversations
Were relevant
That we were more then 2 apples hanging from the same tree.
Flawless stranger.
Her sent melted my soul
Like snow….
And intact entirely with my spirit
I was dreaming in time that me an her knew each other some where
Before I opened my door?.......
I mixed stranger,
With confusional like thinking…
“Umm……
Excuse me Mrs.”
(But have I seen u before?)
Cuz the way u walk an the way Ur hair blows
I remember counting Ur steps,
Touching Ur existence before….
“An I heard u like poetry
Readings at coffee shops
Cuz I sat an watched u sip
5creams 4 sugars to settle the score.”
I’ve been watching u with my soul
An in my dreams
Ravishing Ur beauty
Trying to multiply an divide
Ur whole blessing.
Ud never believe
Her name remains guessing….
Cuz she’s a stranger
So perfect
My heart beats for her more
I wanna slide next to her an open the door
“What’s up ma?
Haven’t I seen u before?”
Maybe its Ur short hair,
Got me kissing on Ur neck
Lost in Ur whole actuality
Of me being invisible…
Intangible
Crossed legs
A smile that shines brighter then the moon
I think she’s my perfect stranger!
My perfect outlander
My outlet to what’s missing
N descent of my frustrations,
I hear her threw my headphones
I wear on my chest.
My ears are def to the negative comments
Of eww she’s a lesbian!!!
“So excuse me Mrs.
Haven’t I seen u before?”
Maybe it was our 5star wedding we had
B4 1804……………….
Maybe it was our chemistry
We had as u walked by me at the mall………….
Maybe it was my hand that melted into urs?
Ur my perfect stranger that turned into something
More. Or maybe my dreams that put u together in my sleep
So un-bare-able for me to not believe we were ment to be!
“Hey ma
What’s Ur name?”
I think ive seen u before!
I mixed pure satisfaction
With flawless nothings,
Produced a stranger that
Touched me.
I approached her
With a hand
Opened my door told her to get in.
She was a stranger to my eyes, but to my soul
Equaled a total of
100%.
I knew her smile from some place heaven sent,
An she was so perfect……
There had to be another life I was stuck in!
Cuz our conversations
Were relevant
That we were more then 2 apples hanging from the same tree.
Flawless stranger.
Her sent melted my soul
Like snow….
And intact entirely with my spirit
I was dreaming in time that me an her knew each other some where
Before I opened my door?.......
I mixed stranger,
With confusional like thinking…
“Umm……
Excuse me Mrs.”
(But have I seen u before?)
Cuz the way u walk an the way Ur hair blows
I remember counting Ur steps,
Touching Ur existence before….
“An I heard u like poetry
Readings at coffee shops
Cuz I sat an watched u sip
5creams 4 sugars to settle the score.”
I’ve been watching u with my soul
An in my dreams
Ravishing Ur beauty
Trying to multiply an divide
Ur whole blessing.
Ud never believe
Her name remains guessing….
Cuz she’s a stranger
So perfect
My heart beats for her more
I wanna slide next to her an open the door
“What’s up ma?
Haven’t I seen u before?”
Maybe its Ur short hair,
Got me kissing on Ur neck
Lost in Ur whole actuality
Of me being invisible…
Intangible
Crossed legs
A smile that shines brighter then the moon
I think she’s my perfect stranger!
My perfect outlander
My outlet to what’s missing
N descent of my frustrations,
I hear her threw my headphones
I wear on my chest.
My ears are def to the negative comments
Of eww she’s a lesbian!!!
“So excuse me Mrs.
Haven’t I seen u before?”
Maybe it was our 5star wedding we had
B4 1804……………….
Maybe it was our chemistry
We had as u walked by me at the mall………….
Maybe it was my hand that melted into urs?
Ur my perfect stranger that turned into something
More. Or maybe my dreams that put u together in my sleep
So un-bare-able for me to not believe we were ment to be!
“Hey ma
What’s Ur name?”
I think ive seen u before!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
trust
I have always had TRUST issues,
Balancing……. Confidence, an inner window….
With “I TRUST YOU”
When trusting myself has always been the real issue.
And not even just a (relationship) type TRUST cuz in that
Since I TRUST me b4 I TRUST anyone else
AND THAT’S KINDA SELFISH BUT
Im not here for anyone’s entertainment,
{{{Or how many times u can break my heart}}}
{{{Or how many I love yous come falling apart}}}
Like a needle to a blanket,
Like sand to an ocean,
I TRUST every inch of grain THAT WE STEP THREW
JUST TO REACH THE EDGE OF THE WATER……
IVE
Thrown messages of potions in the puddles of my mistakes
AND WATCHED THEM disincarnate.
Now I can provide myself with the self esteem
To trust another human being, but it is harder then u think.
Being I was almost married until everything in my life suddenly changed!
He found others,… and I was left in the rain to drowned in my own sorrows……
Wondering were I went wrong.
So soaking up my own tears from the hands he decided to borrow. So trusting someone
Is harder then u think.
I’ve never in my life felt so low,
Never felt so UN loved,
“I guess affections is what I lack of.”
My soul screams every morning,
My lips plead in content of why I can’t jus turn over an kiss you!!!!!!!!!!
My dreams dream im with u!!!!!!!!!!
But, I wake up on the floor,
Reaching for Ur body to brush my hands threw Ur hair.
The kiss I place to Ur 4 head that whispers I love you every morning when I wake.
{{{But Ur not there so I guess ill wait}}}}
It’s just another door I must walk threw…………..
The strength god has given me is UN believable,
And just when I think im perfecting the believable I fall apart once more……
The frustration is killing me,
The I wanna be in Ur arms is barring my every confidence, “it’s my early coffin.”
Always in the back of my mind the words contemplate back in forth, “u may find someone else.”
An that’s when I battle T-R-U-S-T (RELIANCE)
I’ve hurt myself in so many ways……. (PUASE)
It’s hard to look in the mirror these days…… (PAUSE)
Placing my hands together to pray, that
Ur life collides with mine.
And no matter what ppl say u an I well ride tell the end of time!
I want my book to end in love with Ur whole being,
So trusting u is THE 1st chapter I wrote
In BOLD LETTERS…..
Making words VIBE with the subject of I <3 YOU!!!
(So trusting u well be easy)
I gotta trust my self in chapter 2 that my inner windows shine like
The moon, an my eyes sparkle like the stars,
And every kiss shot to mars is worth every moment
I get to spend with u.
I cherish every sentence WRITTEN IN ....UR.... EXISTENCE
U are more then just this person……………..
I talk to…………
Ur the grass around the trunk of my heart the continues to gross,
An fertilizes my body to breathe…..
The sharpener to my pencil that gives me the strength to write
AND READ,
U are the paper I tell everything to
So without u im really nothing!!!!!!!!!!!
Im a soul with bruises that well never fade,
So TRUST is what I must in grave. (And pray)
Trusting u is gonna be easy I MUST SAY!!!
Ill put my spirit on stage an cry tears for u,
Write in mirror image in parallel lines,
Read backwards until time rewinds…..
I wanna make impossible possible until the end of this line!!!
u are my “TRUST”
Even though my finger tip lust for your touch
I find myself counting days on end waiting tell u can jus be mine…..
Calling numbers of hope screaming at faith!
Putting god on this pedestal stool that I yell at every night b4 I go to sleep,
Why!!! ????
Why!!! ????
Why, is this happening?
(an I cry tears u never see)
I worry cuz I love you,
I get mad sometimes cuz I jus want to be next to YOU!
So don’t ever think that I don’t TRUST you…..
(Im battling myself)
Sorting out all the shit ive been threw
Trying to throw OUT the baggage of pain,
Relapsing every now an then.
“YOU ARE MY DRUG I CANT GET ENOUGH OF”
I’ve taught myself how to love in a different way,
One nobody knows about but YOU.
I give my all,….MY every men skill fragment that remains
I give u my all!!!!!
Until my all is all I can give,
Until my heart stops beating I give u my TRUST
In my whole being that u
Are worth every day I have to wait………………………………..
Balancing……. Confidence, an inner window….
With “I TRUST YOU”
When trusting myself has always been the real issue.
And not even just a (relationship) type TRUST cuz in that
Since I TRUST me b4 I TRUST anyone else
AND THAT’S KINDA SELFISH BUT
Im not here for anyone’s entertainment,
{{{Or how many times u can break my heart}}}
{{{Or how many I love yous come falling apart}}}
Like a needle to a blanket,
Like sand to an ocean,
I TRUST every inch of grain THAT WE STEP THREW
JUST TO REACH THE EDGE OF THE WATER……
IVE
Thrown messages of potions in the puddles of my mistakes
AND WATCHED THEM disincarnate.
Now I can provide myself with the self esteem
To trust another human being, but it is harder then u think.
Being I was almost married until everything in my life suddenly changed!
He found others,… and I was left in the rain to drowned in my own sorrows……
Wondering were I went wrong.
So soaking up my own tears from the hands he decided to borrow. So trusting someone
Is harder then u think.
I’ve never in my life felt so low,
Never felt so UN loved,
“I guess affections is what I lack of.”
My soul screams every morning,
My lips plead in content of why I can’t jus turn over an kiss you!!!!!!!!!!
My dreams dream im with u!!!!!!!!!!
But, I wake up on the floor,
Reaching for Ur body to brush my hands threw Ur hair.
The kiss I place to Ur 4 head that whispers I love you every morning when I wake.
{{{But Ur not there so I guess ill wait}}}}
It’s just another door I must walk threw…………..
The strength god has given me is UN believable,
And just when I think im perfecting the believable I fall apart once more……
The frustration is killing me,
The I wanna be in Ur arms is barring my every confidence, “it’s my early coffin.”
Always in the back of my mind the words contemplate back in forth, “u may find someone else.”
An that’s when I battle T-R-U-S-T (RELIANCE)
I’ve hurt myself in so many ways……. (PUASE)
It’s hard to look in the mirror these days…… (PAUSE)
Placing my hands together to pray, that
Ur life collides with mine.
And no matter what ppl say u an I well ride tell the end of time!
I want my book to end in love with Ur whole being,
So trusting u is THE 1st chapter I wrote
In BOLD LETTERS…..
Making words VIBE with the subject of I <3 YOU!!!
(So trusting u well be easy)
I gotta trust my self in chapter 2 that my inner windows shine like
The moon, an my eyes sparkle like the stars,
And every kiss shot to mars is worth every moment
I get to spend with u.
I cherish every sentence WRITTEN IN ....UR.... EXISTENCE
U are more then just this person……………..
I talk to…………
Ur the grass around the trunk of my heart the continues to gross,
An fertilizes my body to breathe…..
The sharpener to my pencil that gives me the strength to write
AND READ,
U are the paper I tell everything to
So without u im really nothing!!!!!!!!!!!
Im a soul with bruises that well never fade,
So TRUST is what I must in grave. (And pray)
Trusting u is gonna be easy I MUST SAY!!!
Ill put my spirit on stage an cry tears for u,
Write in mirror image in parallel lines,
Read backwards until time rewinds…..
I wanna make impossible possible until the end of this line!!!
u are my “TRUST”
Even though my finger tip lust for your touch
I find myself counting days on end waiting tell u can jus be mine…..
Calling numbers of hope screaming at faith!
Putting god on this pedestal stool that I yell at every night b4 I go to sleep,
Why!!! ????
Why!!! ????
Why, is this happening?
(an I cry tears u never see)
I worry cuz I love you,
I get mad sometimes cuz I jus want to be next to YOU!
So don’t ever think that I don’t TRUST you…..
(Im battling myself)
Sorting out all the shit ive been threw
Trying to throw OUT the baggage of pain,
Relapsing every now an then.
“YOU ARE MY DRUG I CANT GET ENOUGH OF”
I’ve taught myself how to love in a different way,
One nobody knows about but YOU.
I give my all,….MY every men skill fragment that remains
I give u my all!!!!!
Until my all is all I can give,
Until my heart stops beating I give u my TRUST
In my whole being that u
Are worth every day I have to wait………………………………..
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
dieing alone
If I could dig my soul from my spirit,
Id dig further then 6 feet…..
Cuz under my skins
Is a deadly sin
That coffins me to the new noises
My lips refuse to speak.
I'm cranberry of a bladder infection,
Anxiety of anti depression,
Dizzy from this aggression, So….
if I could dig past my resurrection
Id dig pasted 6 feet………
for what's its worth I've been
Dieing for ages!
Souls broken of men skill pages,
Fragments remains
In this writings of pencil shavings…?
Pressure pushes my brain
Up against the 4 walls I've confined myself in!
Counting days thinking my last hours (I well die alone!)
Finding myself days after layn in my own disaster,
phone in my left hand 911 left on hold…..
I watched my eyes roll back as I dropped to the floor
Foam came from my mouth… “someone help”!!
(I'm dieing alone)
An as I sat outside myself I put my hands out
An pressed together praying to god!
An as I laid next too my body I let myself go
HOW CAN I BLAME THE MAN ABOVE!
When my heart stopped pumping poetry thru my veins,
And my life ran ahead of me, when I cheated the game,
I lost contact wit my soul
An my spirit ran away.
So I died thinking life was nothing but a filthy ass game!
So within my name I wrote poetry to help ones relate,
When u feel like YOU’VE lost control of ur own life!!!
U been dieing for ages yet nobodys opened there eyes to witness ur dieing strife!!!
So u cleaned up the blood from the scene, wiped up the blood stains,
Packed Ur body up an threw it in Ur own trunk of desired dreams…
Purified Ur mental with fairy dust, when sleep became Ur favorite theme
Nobody sees u anymore.
when dialing 911 all u hear is a busy tone…………………………..
GIVING UP SEEMS TO BE THE LAST OPTION!
So I picked up the phone an put it back on the wall
Pressed my hands together an jumped back into my body prayed to god plz dont let me die alone!
Id dig further then 6 feet…..
Cuz under my skins
Is a deadly sin
That coffins me to the new noises
My lips refuse to speak.
I'm cranberry of a bladder infection,
Anxiety of anti depression,
Dizzy from this aggression, So….
if I could dig past my resurrection
Id dig pasted 6 feet………
for what's its worth I've been
Dieing for ages!
Souls broken of men skill pages,
Fragments remains
In this writings of pencil shavings…?
Pressure pushes my brain
Up against the 4 walls I've confined myself in!
Counting days thinking my last hours (I well die alone!)
Finding myself days after layn in my own disaster,
phone in my left hand 911 left on hold…..
I watched my eyes roll back as I dropped to the floor
Foam came from my mouth… “someone help”!!
(I'm dieing alone)
An as I sat outside myself I put my hands out
An pressed together praying to god!
An as I laid next too my body I let myself go
HOW CAN I BLAME THE MAN ABOVE!
When my heart stopped pumping poetry thru my veins,
And my life ran ahead of me, when I cheated the game,
I lost contact wit my soul
An my spirit ran away.
So I died thinking life was nothing but a filthy ass game!
So within my name I wrote poetry to help ones relate,
When u feel like YOU’VE lost control of ur own life!!!
U been dieing for ages yet nobodys opened there eyes to witness ur dieing strife!!!
So u cleaned up the blood from the scene, wiped up the blood stains,
Packed Ur body up an threw it in Ur own trunk of desired dreams…
Purified Ur mental with fairy dust, when sleep became Ur favorite theme
Nobody sees u anymore.
when dialing 911 all u hear is a busy tone…………………………..
GIVING UP SEEMS TO BE THE LAST OPTION!
So I picked up the phone an put it back on the wall
Pressed my hands together an jumped back into my body prayed to god plz dont let me die alone!
Monday, November 9, 2009
i just wanna know
If I ripped my heart out my chest,
an sealed it wit no address
Would u dissect it?
By all means
My heart seems to beat funny.
So how hard it is to identify?
Known Ur head has lied on my chest,
so I know u studied my every beat........
And in all raw dis function if u touch it I tend to fall
Believing Ur sorrys once an for all
("again").........
My heart fell for Ur stupid games!
Cuz the word I love you remains Insane in a cage I've try to lock away.
"But this isn't why im unhappy today."
And I can write one poem after another
But I still remain undercover to this thing
Clogging my true feelings.
I feel like I couldn't cry enough tears to understand
My every fears in this life Long game.
And days I sit wondering where ill be in 5 yrs!
And how are my feelings going to change?
How can I fix something that remains,
Invisible to my eye sight,
And out reached by these close fisted hands
I try 2 press together an pray,
But one thing still remains
Im not happy!
So what makes janae happy?
Going back n forth Like a book I've read more then once
But can't comprehend the meanings!
Starting over from chapter 1
(greetings)
still can't remember what I read.
And the fucked up part is when I cry tears of the devil
Evilness in this smile of all my trial and tribulations
Hunt me again!
I've cried tears,
wiped finger tips parallel down my cheeks,
Looked in the mirror....
"god how I hate what I see"
Sad part is idk what makes me happy!
I've opened my chest let in things I can't compress
Tight fisted,
I've held back emotions
But fact is I've bottled more then alcohol, anWet cherry blunts to disguise my UN happiness!
When the pain set on faces of ppl that try to figure janae out.......
Truth is
im not a pencil u can't erase
My pain!
Im a marker that stays clearly disguising rain drops down my face!
Coloring my world in colors Bright to the worlds eye sight.......
I feel like I don’t belong Here!!!
I feel as if I don’t sing this song,
or write this poetry!
Nobody well ever know how I really feel inside....
I've killed fragments held tears that clearly needed to be painted an hung on walls of ppls souls.
I may have made mistakes
but somewhere inside me Is a women I've yet to know,
An Im crying cuz change is all I need!
Dragging my world into pieces,
If my heart was to beat 1 last beat,
Count my every movement an write me in books
Jus so I can sit down an continue to read.
(Taking notes)
Id like to meet janae!
B4 god sweeps me off my feet an lays me 6 deep.
I want to know what makes me happy!
And how true love feels,
I wanna look in the mirror an smile
Walking miles on these 2 feet,
Snapping my fingers,
To a new beat..........
"I just wanna know what makes me happy"
Cuz I already know what makes me cry!!!
an sealed it wit no address
Would u dissect it?
By all means
My heart seems to beat funny.
So how hard it is to identify?
Known Ur head has lied on my chest,
so I know u studied my every beat........
And in all raw dis function if u touch it I tend to fall
Believing Ur sorrys once an for all
("again").........
My heart fell for Ur stupid games!
Cuz the word I love you remains Insane in a cage I've try to lock away.
"But this isn't why im unhappy today."
And I can write one poem after another
But I still remain undercover to this thing
Clogging my true feelings.
I feel like I couldn't cry enough tears to understand
My every fears in this life Long game.
And days I sit wondering where ill be in 5 yrs!
And how are my feelings going to change?
How can I fix something that remains,
Invisible to my eye sight,
And out reached by these close fisted hands
I try 2 press together an pray,
But one thing still remains
Im not happy!
So what makes janae happy?
Going back n forth Like a book I've read more then once
But can't comprehend the meanings!
Starting over from chapter 1
(greetings)
still can't remember what I read.
And the fucked up part is when I cry tears of the devil
Evilness in this smile of all my trial and tribulations
Hunt me again!
I've cried tears,
wiped finger tips parallel down my cheeks,
Looked in the mirror....
"god how I hate what I see"
Sad part is idk what makes me happy!
I've opened my chest let in things I can't compress
Tight fisted,
I've held back emotions
But fact is I've bottled more then alcohol, anWet cherry blunts to disguise my UN happiness!
When the pain set on faces of ppl that try to figure janae out.......
Truth is
im not a pencil u can't erase
My pain!
Im a marker that stays clearly disguising rain drops down my face!
Coloring my world in colors Bright to the worlds eye sight.......
I feel like I don’t belong Here!!!
I feel as if I don’t sing this song,
or write this poetry!
Nobody well ever know how I really feel inside....
I've killed fragments held tears that clearly needed to be painted an hung on walls of ppls souls.
I may have made mistakes
but somewhere inside me Is a women I've yet to know,
An Im crying cuz change is all I need!
Dragging my world into pieces,
If my heart was to beat 1 last beat,
Count my every movement an write me in books
Jus so I can sit down an continue to read.
(Taking notes)
Id like to meet janae!
B4 god sweeps me off my feet an lays me 6 deep.
I want to know what makes me happy!
And how true love feels,
I wanna look in the mirror an smile
Walking miles on these 2 feet,
Snapping my fingers,
To a new beat..........
"I just wanna know what makes me happy"
Cuz I already know what makes me cry!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
COME LAY WITH ME
(MAEDARULA)
Come Lay With Me
with potent potency completely taking hold of me...
unknowingly...
aroused by each and every glance you send my way
oh so forwardly..
baby...
come lay with me and complete this trifecta
just you & me and a body like GOD's perfection forgetting about hectic decisions of everyday living and get lost mentally within your mind
& physically within the division of your legs
go ahead and spread
allow me to enter this paradise on earth
a region that will give birth to renewed feelings
that's worth the selection
so come
(JANAE)
(Come lay with me)
Let me feel the elements of your body,
"Yes let me feel"
I can smell the existents of Ur heart beating,
And the movements of my hands Running down every square inch,
Damn never knew Ur sexiness stretched outside Of Ur presents.
(Come lay with me)
Feel the wetness between My legs,
let me put candy On top of Ur peep hole
No traces
Î don’t need a blue print to create the thesis of Ur delectation’s.
Let my eyes wonder down to Ur lips
Slip my Tung in between some of the most beautiful hips.
(I've ever seen)
And never seen
Legs spread as wide as this.
Let ME confabulate with Mrs. Pretty For a few hours,
Take her to the shower an Refresh this,
So we can lay together once again.
Ur god’s reflection,
And I'm Mary's hand
(what a virgin)
can’t explain the tightness Uve displayed!
So....... (come lay with me)
Create passion,
Screaming my name in this bedroom.
I've pressed record so we can press play,
And when Ur away
Î can rewind the 1st time u laid in my bed
And we put on a display of Sweet juices......
I'm a recite my technique’s in my sleep
While my hands run threw Ur hair.
So...... (come lay with me)
And feel the unconditional Love in the air,
Why Î replace ur head with mine near.
(Come lay with me)
Come Lay With Me
with potent potency completely taking hold of me...
unknowingly...
aroused by each and every glance you send my way
oh so forwardly..
baby...
come lay with me and complete this trifecta
just you & me and a body like GOD's perfection forgetting about hectic decisions of everyday living and get lost mentally within your mind
& physically within the division of your legs
go ahead and spread
allow me to enter this paradise on earth
a region that will give birth to renewed feelings
that's worth the selection
so come
(JANAE)
(Come lay with me)
Let me feel the elements of your body,
"Yes let me feel"
I can smell the existents of Ur heart beating,
And the movements of my hands Running down every square inch,
Damn never knew Ur sexiness stretched outside Of Ur presents.
(Come lay with me)
Feel the wetness between My legs,
let me put candy On top of Ur peep hole
No traces
Î don’t need a blue print to create the thesis of Ur delectation’s.
Let my eyes wonder down to Ur lips
Slip my Tung in between some of the most beautiful hips.
(I've ever seen)
And never seen
Legs spread as wide as this.
Let ME confabulate with Mrs. Pretty For a few hours,
Take her to the shower an Refresh this,
So we can lay together once again.
Ur god’s reflection,
And I'm Mary's hand
(what a virgin)
can’t explain the tightness Uve displayed!
So....... (come lay with me)
Create passion,
Screaming my name in this bedroom.
I've pressed record so we can press play,
And when Ur away
Î can rewind the 1st time u laid in my bed
And we put on a display of Sweet juices......
I'm a recite my technique’s in my sleep
While my hands run threw Ur hair.
So...... (come lay with me)
And feel the unconditional Love in the air,
Why Î replace ur head with mine near.
(Come lay with me)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
janae& roy toy lol
(JANAE)
This enticing,
Unforgettable,
Sexual Desire,
has Untied my morals,
An fucked my brain...
Moving my spine to the left
So fuck itHow can I do right?
When a blessing sits between my thighs,
How can I say no?
When the dressing taste so right!
An what do Î look like giving a fuck about what think?
Naw Î ant no celebrity
So what's it matter to u?
Put me on the front cover of ppl magazine
Titled "fuck you"
Turn to page 22 read a lot more!
I seen her laid out on the beach with Alicia moore... lol
It this indescribable
Wetness
Taste like fruit punch juices,
Swimming in my every moves in moving this Your way.
And yes my girl knows about u!
An since I've been played, (then hell Î owe her a few)
Its this purple sensual Kisses,
tingling my body infested with Ur touch!
So when I'm sleep I dream of Ur love.
And who said I'm telling the truth Baby?
"all Î wanna do is fuck"
Run my Tung down Ur torso I'm not worried about when u cum!
Cuz Î don’t swollen shit unless is bomb..
(Only real fools fall in love) DUH!!!
Hope ya don’t take this wrong But Î don’t give a fuck!
Ima sing u in this song, Fuck u to the beat,
I'm immoral with the way u think.
Tied up in a sling
Broken heart,
Broken love,
Broken home,
No glove
Lets do it dirty!!!!
And because I don’t care about Ur feelings An u don’t give a fuck about mine ima call u up An let u hear her scream!
My pimpin dream
Catches on to the confusing ass feelings U throw in my catchers mitt!
only problem is I keep on missing it.....
Get Ur feelings lined up an stand in the back of the line An wait for me to call Ur name!
Cuz understanding an standing under feelings Won't get u anywhere but a wet dream, 2 fingers an the index fucking the inside of u.
until u climax an wake up to realize it ant what it seems....
An because u can't get in-between
My teeth
I'm a fuck her on the side of u.
Tangled in her web,
Poisoned by her touch,
I've made love to her heart, an fucked her emotions
More then once!
janae don’t catch feelings off a sexual love
DUH!!!!!
What if I didn’t care about clearing thee air?
What if Î didn’t say I was sorry for Messing up Ur sheets with her?
And What if Î never stuck around to hear Ur Sweet
Tones an harmony moans In my left ear
Telling my mind to do right?
I'd never be standing here in real life!
That's why I never cheated on u not even 1time.
So don’t get me twisted in the rhymed of rhythms Called poetry
Cuz, in my pimpn dream
It all seems to be unfaithful.
Looking into Ur eyes hurts
When I know I've looked into hers The sameThe night B4!
and jus because I'm lost in a dream So unreal Dnt think i haven't thought of this b4.
Its hard to tell What wheels are turning in what direction Cuz like a mop ill ring u out an still want more.LOL
Its a pimpin dream need i say more???
(ROY)
Ill keep u copasetic if u let me
Whisper sweet nothings so u won't 4get me
Touch u all soft u won't 4get it
I'm hella sweet jus hope u ain't a diabetic
Some plz phone a paramedic
Withdrawls from artificial sweetner leavin u a heart that's all prostetic.
So they nick named me Splenda
A simplistically sweet suga pretenda
N I can remember when I met her
I think it was in the 3rd week of november
Yah she let me bender even tho I jus met her
I felt like nuthn could get better
like a rat when he finds his block of cheddar.
Gratification that u can eat but at the end its all gone
These temporary fixes only last for so long.
Then its on to the next 1.
I need a fresh one
Checkn the expiration date like every1 should
because we've all had our share of spoiled goods
And trust me its gross when its stale
make a thizz face n spit it strait towards hell
N what could b that smell? no 1 likes rotten
That's why if u ain't wit it u will be forgotten.
N I ain't stoppin........
So to hell with it it goes.
N on to other hoes as I paint over my emotions n hide my feelings with these clothes.
Pimpn never really shows what's goin on or what they know.
Just keep watchn as u puttn on a show.....
u coulda been an actor...
but u'd make better clown tho
Well that's all folks now the curtains closed...
This enticing,
Unforgettable,
Sexual Desire,
has Untied my morals,
An fucked my brain...
Moving my spine to the left
So fuck itHow can I do right?
When a blessing sits between my thighs,
How can I say no?
When the dressing taste so right!
An what do Î look like giving a fuck about what think?
Naw Î ant no celebrity
So what's it matter to u?
Put me on the front cover of ppl magazine
Titled "fuck you"
Turn to page 22 read a lot more!
I seen her laid out on the beach with Alicia moore... lol
It this indescribable
Wetness
Taste like fruit punch juices,
Swimming in my every moves in moving this Your way.
And yes my girl knows about u!
An since I've been played, (then hell Î owe her a few)
Its this purple sensual Kisses,
tingling my body infested with Ur touch!
So when I'm sleep I dream of Ur love.
And who said I'm telling the truth Baby?
"all Î wanna do is fuck"
Run my Tung down Ur torso I'm not worried about when u cum!
Cuz Î don’t swollen shit unless is bomb..
(Only real fools fall in love) DUH!!!
Hope ya don’t take this wrong But Î don’t give a fuck!
Ima sing u in this song, Fuck u to the beat,
I'm immoral with the way u think.
Tied up in a sling
Broken heart,
Broken love,
Broken home,
No glove
Lets do it dirty!!!!
And because I don’t care about Ur feelings An u don’t give a fuck about mine ima call u up An let u hear her scream!
My pimpin dream
Catches on to the confusing ass feelings U throw in my catchers mitt!
only problem is I keep on missing it.....
Get Ur feelings lined up an stand in the back of the line An wait for me to call Ur name!
Cuz understanding an standing under feelings Won't get u anywhere but a wet dream, 2 fingers an the index fucking the inside of u.
until u climax an wake up to realize it ant what it seems....
An because u can't get in-between
My teeth
I'm a fuck her on the side of u.
Tangled in her web,
Poisoned by her touch,
I've made love to her heart, an fucked her emotions
More then once!
janae don’t catch feelings off a sexual love
DUH!!!!!
What if I didn’t care about clearing thee air?
What if Î didn’t say I was sorry for Messing up Ur sheets with her?
And What if Î never stuck around to hear Ur Sweet
Tones an harmony moans In my left ear
Telling my mind to do right?
I'd never be standing here in real life!
That's why I never cheated on u not even 1time.
So don’t get me twisted in the rhymed of rhythms Called poetry
Cuz, in my pimpn dream
It all seems to be unfaithful.
Looking into Ur eyes hurts
When I know I've looked into hers The sameThe night B4!
and jus because I'm lost in a dream So unreal Dnt think i haven't thought of this b4.
Its hard to tell What wheels are turning in what direction Cuz like a mop ill ring u out an still want more.LOL
Its a pimpin dream need i say more???
(ROY)
Ill keep u copasetic if u let me
Whisper sweet nothings so u won't 4get me
Touch u all soft u won't 4get it
I'm hella sweet jus hope u ain't a diabetic
Some plz phone a paramedic
Withdrawls from artificial sweetner leavin u a heart that's all prostetic.
So they nick named me Splenda
A simplistically sweet suga pretenda
N I can remember when I met her
I think it was in the 3rd week of november
Yah she let me bender even tho I jus met her
I felt like nuthn could get better
like a rat when he finds his block of cheddar.
Gratification that u can eat but at the end its all gone
These temporary fixes only last for so long.
Then its on to the next 1.
I need a fresh one
Checkn the expiration date like every1 should
because we've all had our share of spoiled goods
And trust me its gross when its stale
make a thizz face n spit it strait towards hell
N what could b that smell? no 1 likes rotten
That's why if u ain't wit it u will be forgotten.
N I ain't stoppin........
So to hell with it it goes.
N on to other hoes as I paint over my emotions n hide my feelings with these clothes.
Pimpn never really shows what's goin on or what they know.
Just keep watchn as u puttn on a show.....
u coulda been an actor...
but u'd make better clown tho
Well that's all folks now the curtains closed...
Friday, October 23, 2009
Mental Assumptions
Continuous, mental, (Assumptions.)
Tugging at each an every one Of my last emotions.
Making me throw my soul In nurtural,
an jus levitate for The time being
Making my understanding mutual with ur Well being.
So in order for me to do that I've locked my feelings And disagreement's to the way to u do shit Into a box.
stored right below my spirit
(Tagged what use to be love)
In red marker.....
So when ur ready let me know,
An be ready to actually hear it.
Its 2 stair cases high,
over to the left Pushed back into the right corner of my chest
Blocking anyone from getting in.
(And that's the fucked up part)
Holding back from myself,
and what someone else deserves Cuz I'm afraid to hurt ur feelings.
I'm Shoved into the left corner of ur heart,
Î can barely hear the beat.
Taping my finger nails down my leg I've lost my feeling.....
Î couldn't even tell u the last time i cried Over the same thing.
My souls ran out of washer fluids so my eyes Dnt leak much of anything,
An since I've blocked the only way these feelings can get in,
(out)
There's noo need 2 medicate my freeing.
Naked to all lifes new things
I've smelled love when its fresh,
an when its expired
"What a mess"
I've repeated myself so much I could of been an actress
within myself
So mentally I'm tired of nagging about the same fealth!
Assuming someone else has took care of what they call
My job!
soo ima kick up my feet an count how many times u actually say u love me!
I've wrote vacancy into words to describe the way This shit makes me feel!
And I've tried to tell u in different ways each time But Î dnt think u understand!
The physical finger tips that created this pen,
to write these words To help u guys understand Janae has been hurt 2!
I know how it feels to be heart broken on something U worked soo hard to get threw.
So dnt think Î can't feel ur pain an wipe ur tears when needed!
Dnt think janae is cold hearted cuz she left her x the way she did,
An dnt think cuz she's a victim of domestic violence u can miss treat janae in anyway!
(She's not stupid)
Dnt call me confused cuz i like dudes an happen to fuck with girls,
Or cuz Î like girls an happen to fuck wit dudes,
Cuz honestly
what's it matter to u!???
But with lifes baggage's its hard to trust ppl So my mental assumption
Put boxing gloves on an beat the shit out of my emotions.
That's why i dnt cry,
(Î bleed inside)
That's why Î dnt talk,
(Î scream an hide)
So Without my poetry u mother fuckers wouldn't even know how janae feels inside!
Dnt call me nieve,
Or a bitch,
Î can be romantic an passionate,
Î can be ur best wish,
Or ur worst night mare.....
And trust me Î believe in karma too,
So dnt think I'm not prepared for whatever is coming to...
But if Î say i love you,
(plz believe Î ment it boo)
Word dnt slip ur lips an knock into ur spirits for secs Minimizing mins
From one heart to the next......
If Î snapped my fingers would u hear the existence
Of the music drowning out my souls best assists?
Grabbing into ur force an jus trying to get ur simple minded self to just fucking listen! Contemplating on my mental assumptions,
If Î listen 2 my heart i may have to deal with repercussions!
So I've Chilled on ice
Forming a box in my chest,
Sipping my last drink b4 show time.
I've imprisoned the way Î feel for u for the moment
Î dnt wanna assume anymore!
So when ur ready dnt knock at my door,
open it with open arms And communicate to my soul with ur heart.
Tugging at each an every one Of my last emotions.
Making me throw my soul In nurtural,
an jus levitate for The time being
Making my understanding mutual with ur Well being.
So in order for me to do that I've locked my feelings And disagreement's to the way to u do shit Into a box.
stored right below my spirit
(Tagged what use to be love)
In red marker.....
So when ur ready let me know,
An be ready to actually hear it.
Its 2 stair cases high,
over to the left Pushed back into the right corner of my chest
Blocking anyone from getting in.
(And that's the fucked up part)
Holding back from myself,
and what someone else deserves Cuz I'm afraid to hurt ur feelings.
I'm Shoved into the left corner of ur heart,
Î can barely hear the beat.
Taping my finger nails down my leg I've lost my feeling.....
Î couldn't even tell u the last time i cried Over the same thing.
My souls ran out of washer fluids so my eyes Dnt leak much of anything,
An since I've blocked the only way these feelings can get in,
(out)
There's noo need 2 medicate my freeing.
Naked to all lifes new things
I've smelled love when its fresh,
an when its expired
"What a mess"
I've repeated myself so much I could of been an actress
within myself
So mentally I'm tired of nagging about the same fealth!
Assuming someone else has took care of what they call
My job!
soo ima kick up my feet an count how many times u actually say u love me!
I've wrote vacancy into words to describe the way This shit makes me feel!
And I've tried to tell u in different ways each time But Î dnt think u understand!
The physical finger tips that created this pen,
to write these words To help u guys understand Janae has been hurt 2!
I know how it feels to be heart broken on something U worked soo hard to get threw.
So dnt think Î can't feel ur pain an wipe ur tears when needed!
Dnt think janae is cold hearted cuz she left her x the way she did,
An dnt think cuz she's a victim of domestic violence u can miss treat janae in anyway!
(She's not stupid)
Dnt call me confused cuz i like dudes an happen to fuck with girls,
Or cuz Î like girls an happen to fuck wit dudes,
Cuz honestly
what's it matter to u!???
But with lifes baggage's its hard to trust ppl So my mental assumption
Put boxing gloves on an beat the shit out of my emotions.
That's why i dnt cry,
(Î bleed inside)
That's why Î dnt talk,
(Î scream an hide)
So Without my poetry u mother fuckers wouldn't even know how janae feels inside!
Dnt call me nieve,
Or a bitch,
Î can be romantic an passionate,
Î can be ur best wish,
Or ur worst night mare.....
And trust me Î believe in karma too,
So dnt think I'm not prepared for whatever is coming to...
But if Î say i love you,
(plz believe Î ment it boo)
Word dnt slip ur lips an knock into ur spirits for secs Minimizing mins
From one heart to the next......
If Î snapped my fingers would u hear the existence
Of the music drowning out my souls best assists?
Grabbing into ur force an jus trying to get ur simple minded self to just fucking listen! Contemplating on my mental assumptions,
If Î listen 2 my heart i may have to deal with repercussions!
So I've Chilled on ice
Forming a box in my chest,
Sipping my last drink b4 show time.
I've imprisoned the way Î feel for u for the moment
Î dnt wanna assume anymore!
So when ur ready dnt knock at my door,
open it with open arms And communicate to my soul with ur heart.
Friday, October 2, 2009
cookies
Ur my peanut butter cookie
Wrapped in chocolate dressing
I climbed on top
Whipped the sweet milk as Î stared in Ur eyes
I wanna bake cookies tonight
Ur my chocolate pie
The chip that lies between ur thighs
I wanna eat ur cookie until sunrise
And with every bite My lips become numb
Must be the sweet taste after u cum
Close ur eyes its coconut time
Bust out the bag of nuts
ima cook u in (69)
Place my tung back in the oven
I'm going back to the mother fuckn bakery tonight
I got a sweet tooth
Lets cook cinnamon and an sugar cookies
U can keep me up all night
Sprinkle candy hearts
Ill use my finger to create the design
Ill start from ur neck work my way to ur back
then Pour me an tall glass plz
Il be Ur Santa clause with gifts like christmas time
cuz damn U taste
jus as good as cookies in the morning time....lol
Wrapped in chocolate dressing
I climbed on top
Whipped the sweet milk as Î stared in Ur eyes
I wanna bake cookies tonight
Ur my chocolate pie
The chip that lies between ur thighs
I wanna eat ur cookie until sunrise
And with every bite My lips become numb
Must be the sweet taste after u cum
Close ur eyes its coconut time
Bust out the bag of nuts
ima cook u in (69)
Place my tung back in the oven
I'm going back to the mother fuckn bakery tonight
I got a sweet tooth
Lets cook cinnamon and an sugar cookies
U can keep me up all night
Sprinkle candy hearts
Ill use my finger to create the design
Ill start from ur neck work my way to ur back
then Pour me an tall glass plz
Il be Ur Santa clause with gifts like christmas time
cuz damn U taste
jus as good as cookies in the morning time....lol
Thursday, October 1, 2009
I Am Forever Ever Green
My eyes see,
What my mouth don’t wanna move.
“So I guess My logic is
My mouth moves my eyes, and
Pushes volume threw my ears
So fuck it my stare speaks for me!”
((Any who))
For what its worth I'm not thinking about a topic….
(No titles)
Just words flowing so beautifully Like a tropic Rain forest….
Ever green pain nourish.
Ever mean pain cherish,
Ever seems very hellish,
In my ever greens
are u
(Jealous)
lol
Suicide ever seems
((Options))
I am the fucking touris!!!
I found my book ripped pages,
Words plummet from left 2 right.
Dimes turned into pennies
………………………………………………………………………………
Giving up my owe inevitable fight.……
This may not make since 2 ya,
and u are sooo mother fucking right!
Head bowed….
((((((hold on let me light)))))))
Let me sight,
I wanna write,
So hear me re site…..
let me tear ....Ur....
eyes
from his pages An glue them 2 mine!
I am defined With a definition ya mother fuckers Won't ever find!!
No dictionary deep enough To ever explain!
No expressions of my inner pain….
I am a stranger to myself,
In a ever green bubble
Of (smoke)
(Inhale)
{exhale}
I am for ever high…..
So I am forever Floating thru galaxies in time,
Counting sec,
to mins.
Preparing for hours,
too days,
Months too yrs,
And tears,
from fears of for ever being Alone……. FOREVER!
In a lonely world full of persecution Full of lies
Despicable butterflies
there beauty blinds My eyesight.
So yeaa I'm prepared forHurt,
and a fight.
Hooked myself up 2 a tank to help me Repaint this master piece
I've never Had the chance to finish…
I am forever incomplete Without someone at my side
Day thru night.
I've said
(911)
We have an emergency!
(A lost track of times)
Harmonizing my melodies one last time……
”So we have an emergency”
Code b4 9,
Color in
(blue)And (white)
May 17 my grandma died……………..
She lived to be almost 99……………….
I've lost track…………………….
35bars in fact! I plugged my headphones into my heart beat
Dialed the domestic violence line Told them 2 listen carefully….................................................
Ill.... never be the same an that's a fucking cataclysm!....
Ill.... never remain tame an that's a fucking hazard
TO THEM!
(I SAID THEM)
No topic deep enough 2 agree,
When ....Ur....
spirit shifts And ..Ur..
emotions become ....Ur.... worse enemy.
How do I begin to explain my internal pain?
”I'm a ever green topical rain forest”
ISNT THAT (Pretty) ENOUGH
To bad that's all u see!
And all I well ever be.
Thanks to my poetry I well forever be above level
AND ABOVE MORE THEN JUST THESE WORDS U READ.
IM above this analogy
And ....ur.... bleeding pen that ran out of ink,
When u walked into my life an tried to differ an agree!
What my mouth don’t wanna move.
“So I guess My logic is
My mouth moves my eyes, and
Pushes volume threw my ears
So fuck it my stare speaks for me!”
((Any who))
For what its worth I'm not thinking about a topic….
(No titles)
Just words flowing so beautifully Like a tropic Rain forest….
Ever green pain nourish.
Ever mean pain cherish,
Ever seems very hellish,
In my ever greens
are u
(Jealous)
lol
Suicide ever seems
((Options))
I am the fucking touris!!!
I found my book ripped pages,
Words plummet from left 2 right.
Dimes turned into pennies
………………………………………………………………………………
Giving up my owe inevitable fight.……
This may not make since 2 ya,
and u are sooo mother fucking right!
Head bowed….
((((((hold on let me light)))))))
Let me sight,
I wanna write,
So hear me re site…..
let me tear ....Ur....
eyes
from his pages An glue them 2 mine!
I am defined With a definition ya mother fuckers Won't ever find!!
No dictionary deep enough To ever explain!
No expressions of my inner pain….
I am a stranger to myself,
In a ever green bubble
Of (smoke)
(Inhale)
{exhale}
I am for ever high…..
So I am forever Floating thru galaxies in time,
Counting sec,
to mins.
Preparing for hours,
too days,
Months too yrs,
And tears,
from fears of for ever being Alone……. FOREVER!
In a lonely world full of persecution Full of lies
Despicable butterflies
there beauty blinds My eyesight.
So yeaa I'm prepared forHurt,
and a fight.
Hooked myself up 2 a tank to help me Repaint this master piece
I've never Had the chance to finish…
I am forever incomplete Without someone at my side
Day thru night.
I've said
(911)
We have an emergency!
(A lost track of times)
Harmonizing my melodies one last time……
”So we have an emergency”
Code b4 9,
Color in
(blue)And (white)
May 17 my grandma died……………..
She lived to be almost 99……………….
I've lost track…………………….
35bars in fact! I plugged my headphones into my heart beat
Dialed the domestic violence line Told them 2 listen carefully….................................................
Ill.... never be the same an that's a fucking cataclysm!....
Ill.... never remain tame an that's a fucking hazard
TO THEM!
(I SAID THEM)
No topic deep enough 2 agree,
When ....Ur....
spirit shifts And ..Ur..
emotions become ....Ur.... worse enemy.
How do I begin to explain my internal pain?
”I'm a ever green topical rain forest”
ISNT THAT (Pretty) ENOUGH
To bad that's all u see!
And all I well ever be.
Thanks to my poetry I well forever be above level
AND ABOVE MORE THEN JUST THESE WORDS U READ.
IM above this analogy
And ....ur.... bleeding pen that ran out of ink,
When u walked into my life an tried to differ an agree!
Friday, September 25, 2009
broken
How much do u think she would be worth?
If she sold her soul for a Louie purse?
How much do u think he'd be worth?
If he told his church he was addicted toHeroin?
"probably nothing"
How much do u think shed be worth?
if she told Her mother girls were more her preference over men?
So as the world turns In this hour glass
Problems continue to accrue,
Family 4got what unconditional love Was.
So when he says he addicted to drugs
An she said she's gay
they lose all contact.
So self inflected pain becomes the relapse
Frustrated, an alone,Used, an abused,How can one come 2?
When the drugs tell him what to do.
Falling asleep on beneficial dreams
Losing hold of what life used to be.
Shooting UN needed things into his system
Just so he wouldn't have to fill 1 ounce of sadness An ill loneness.
She holds on to girl’s hands cuz the affections Rabid her heart And keeps her from falling apart,
When men pummel an rapped her,
Took what god gave an betrayed her.
When a ring became tears instead of smilesWhen her family asked her why???So UN answered questions become emphasis so
She closed her perceptions an perfected her own sins.
"God loves all"
thats what the church man once said.
Gold teeth,
baggy pants,
Dread locks,
an out lined in white calk,
(Screams)
flashy red an blue lights.
Tears hit the pavements in all silent.........
How can his mother come to realizing she could off saved the sirens if she would Have opened her mind an jus listened.
Cut wrist,
blood dripping,
Cold bodies,
no love given.
Godforsaken Located where no one can find her Misfire,
the illusions,
Her mama places her on milk cartons..
Acting like she cares again
She should of loved her when she said sheHad a girlfriend!!!!
So his pharmaceutical skims Rushing threw his blood stream
They found too much
(opium)
Pressing her tears against the cement Spelling words of aggravated assumptions
You should of called intervention!
Or tried to be a better mother when his father came up missing.
(In the end)
"Tears speak"
Dreams are broken into a million pieces
Families lost loved ones Diseased,
dissolutions,
All they can do is recollect Remembrance of what they once had.....
But never pay much attention to.....
Families are supposed too love UN conditional
No matter the situations!
In the end they were all worth a life living
But the absents of love made a live worth taken!!!
If she sold her soul for a Louie purse?
How much do u think he'd be worth?
If he told his church he was addicted toHeroin?
"probably nothing"
How much do u think shed be worth?
if she told Her mother girls were more her preference over men?
So as the world turns In this hour glass
Problems continue to accrue,
Family 4got what unconditional love Was.
So when he says he addicted to drugs
An she said she's gay
they lose all contact.
So self inflected pain becomes the relapse
Frustrated, an alone,Used, an abused,How can one come 2?
When the drugs tell him what to do.
Falling asleep on beneficial dreams
Losing hold of what life used to be.
Shooting UN needed things into his system
Just so he wouldn't have to fill 1 ounce of sadness An ill loneness.
She holds on to girl’s hands cuz the affections Rabid her heart And keeps her from falling apart,
When men pummel an rapped her,
Took what god gave an betrayed her.
When a ring became tears instead of smilesWhen her family asked her why???So UN answered questions become emphasis so
She closed her perceptions an perfected her own sins.
"God loves all"
thats what the church man once said.
Gold teeth,
baggy pants,
Dread locks,
an out lined in white calk,
(Screams)
flashy red an blue lights.
Tears hit the pavements in all silent.........
How can his mother come to realizing she could off saved the sirens if she would Have opened her mind an jus listened.
Cut wrist,
blood dripping,
Cold bodies,
no love given.
Godforsaken Located where no one can find her Misfire,
the illusions,
Her mama places her on milk cartons..
Acting like she cares again
She should of loved her when she said sheHad a girlfriend!!!!
So his pharmaceutical skims Rushing threw his blood stream
They found too much
(opium)
Pressing her tears against the cement Spelling words of aggravated assumptions
You should of called intervention!
Or tried to be a better mother when his father came up missing.
(In the end)
"Tears speak"
Dreams are broken into a million pieces
Families lost loved ones Diseased,
dissolutions,
All they can do is recollect Remembrance of what they once had.....
But never pay much attention to.....
Families are supposed too love UN conditional
No matter the situations!
In the end they were all worth a life living
But the absents of love made a live worth taken!!!
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