Oh brother......
What could I say to you to bring us closer?
What would be your reaction, if I sat you down an expressed to you like real siblings do?
Would you wear a smile of a clown?
Or genuinely walk around happy that you and your sister are now at peace with one another.....
You see brother,
I feel like you an I are one piece, but missing important pieces...
We shared the same womb at one point; I came after you, which makes me, want to follow your footsteps...
But I refuse to follow footsteps I can hardly see!
It's like I sleep in the same room as the enemy!!!
We share the same mom and dad
And even though we don't talk much I know your Hurt, cause believe it or not brother I'm Hurting too.
You displayed another generation of life, an I feel like your son has brought little tiny piece of us together....
But what's together when are hearts are apart?
An what's apart when half of me is hiding in the dark?
And what's the dark without a light?
You see brother I'm
Trying to find the right light to brighten are relationship, but I haven't stumbled over the right set of batteries, nor could I dig thru my dignity an find the right way to use my pen to allow u to listen......
Until this moment.....
See brother
At the end of the day we are all we got,
And I'm
Hating it!!!
Got a sister brother......
Can't even tell u her last name!
Can't even tell u were she stays! An deep down I know that shit plays in your head...
Why couldn't dad be a dad and keep us all aligned?
They say family is important but u know like I know we don't know WTF family stands for!
Fam(ily)
I love you!
Yes brother we are all we have now......
(Moms got to live her life too)
So no matter what bridge your standing at an u feel like you’re about to jump, pick up the phone an call me.
If your about to cry cuz all u need is someone to listen, pick up the phone an call me.
If your stranded in the middle of know where an can't remember your way, home pick up the phone an I well track your destination down.
Cuz believe it or not brother I well not allow u to drown!
But, sad thing about this brother is u have a problem, that’s too big for you to admit! So until you fix it you and I well never have a healthy relationship!
(But something been bugging me too)
Ohh Brother I should of saved u before it was too late.....
I should have caught you before you took the enemies hand!
I should of let you know before u hit the ground....
I should of never let mom
Cry on those lonely nights when she was worried about u!
While I was taking care of your son, I should have told her everything was going to be ok.
But I had no words to say, so I let U step out not realizing it was to late to save you.
But mom needed to cry so that she can let go of the guilt she had inside..
(always blaming herself)
And you never even once told her you were sorry!
But I allowed mom to forget about what bugged me, and concentrate on you ...........
Missing a father we both never had! An I know u think that's not your problem but u and I both know it is!
And I know you remember all the words that were said from mom to dad, and all the times mom had to drag us out the car when it wasn’t her weekend,
So don't think your hard cuz I remember counting the tears that ran down your cheeks.
You had a ninja turtle bed, and me, beauty n the beast until we were 13! That’s how well dad kept up always thinking we were going to just be his babies......
And remember every time we would see him; he'd say how big we got? Probably because he never learned how to keep up, and never learned how to love us properly.
That's why consistence is a very important key in my life,
Cuz I’ve never had consistency....
And if you want to grow brother you got to learn how to let go...
And the key to success is perpetration,
Learning that nothing well be handed to you brother you got to work until your fingertips become torpid!
Almost until u can taste the blood from
Deep down in your soul, u got to search for the better parts of you step outside your element an reboot your self esteem, cuz I know what your weakness is.
You think your stupid!
But WTF does stupid really mean?
We are all gods children so there for we are as smart as we can be, never let anyone tell u u can't do something.
Let me stop there brother before you get to carried away, cuz u an I both know I'm far from perfect, I'm perfectly imperfect cuz this is how god made me, so there for I'm everything he created me to be so why would I ever let Any other human being put me down?
I'm
Trying to get you to understand brother, silent’s is the loudest sound...
So I hope you don't find it crazy that at night I can't sleep, cuz I can hear u screaming to be found!
(I'm just looking for my bother)
Loneliness hurts but they say it’s also good for you
If you have any information please let me know now, before it's to late to create a bond!
Brother......
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
mental
Scared freckles jumped off the faces of ppl with no exapression.
Tears held rallys at the tip of there noses,
And with my looking eye I could taste the fears placed upon there faces........
Bloody hands frm griping life, holding each memory tight!
(Here's a little insight)
He loved taking the trash out it was the only time he went outside.......
She jumped out of her skin,
Took her spirit to church knowing with her sin...................
She felt nobody would forgive them,but god....
Hes use to salen his toys in front of his house to the kids playing bball,
Cause
It was the only way he could eat when his tummy started to rumble.
She use to walk the streets looking for her mother in every alley.....
She use to wait by the phone every other hour for her father to call her collect......
Go fucking figuer
He use to reach for his moms love all he needed was a hug....
But her distraction
Misunderstood her sons actions,
So she would slap um instead!
She use to hold Barbie dolls at night an cry...........
He use to hide under his covers at night with a flash light..........
Tears held rallys at the tip of there noses,
And with my looking eye I could taste the fears placed upon there faces........
Bloody hands frm griping life, holding each memory tight!
(Here's a little insight)
He loved taking the trash out it was the only time he went outside.......
She jumped out of her skin,
Took her spirit to church knowing with her sin...................
She felt nobody would forgive them,but god....
Hes use to salen his toys in front of his house to the kids playing bball,
Cause
It was the only way he could eat when his tummy started to rumble.
She use to walk the streets looking for her mother in every alley.....
She use to wait by the phone every other hour for her father to call her collect......
Go fucking figuer
He use to reach for his moms love all he needed was a hug....
But her distraction
Misunderstood her sons actions,
So she would slap um instead!
She use to hold Barbie dolls at night an cry...........
He use to hide under his covers at night with a flash light..........
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
glides
She glides gracefully.
Tastefully fitted. An implied sign that reads
"No losers admitted"
She’s uplifted an admitted into insanities
4 walls
Scratching, sniffing, and screaming!
Just trying to catch a glimpse of freedom b4 her life slips.
Even though the chains reflected her life decisions, she always stays 3 steps behind his hands
And 2 step above the influence.
His hands,
To slow to catch her,
But his desire?
Eager to match her speed.
He’d get her better in her dreams
When she sleeps
And even in her dreams she weeps, crying out for help yet nobody seems,
Or seeks, jus a old game of hide an seek (no finder)
The prophesy.
Self fulfilling.
Cuz u must be willing to trust.
And be trusted.
And in order to co sign on someone’s dependence,
U must learn how to love unconditionally.
But what’s unconditional mean to a human being that has been
Showed nothing but abuse? shackled under the wings
Of UN pretty things, and
Multiplied by the things subtracted into life’s bean stock
Of mistakes she’s made.
He locked her up
An threw away the key!
What if her decision affected her family?
Drove by, shot 9 times
Now the tragedy lies in the soul of a battered
Spirit without a body.
………………………
Placing her chest up against the walls,
Put her ear up against the stall
Maybe she can feel alive if she counts her heart beat.
She stays alive just for her weekend visits,
Its The only contact she has with the outside world.
Staying emotionally aware of her mistakes,
But being aware that her innocents is irrelevant,
An that no freedom is coming soon!
So like a caged bird she chirps, an sings!
While everyone stands around watches her bleed!
Tastefully fitted. An implied sign that reads
"No losers admitted"
She’s uplifted an admitted into insanities
4 walls
Scratching, sniffing, and screaming!
Just trying to catch a glimpse of freedom b4 her life slips.
Even though the chains reflected her life decisions, she always stays 3 steps behind his hands
And 2 step above the influence.
His hands,
To slow to catch her,
But his desire?
Eager to match her speed.
He’d get her better in her dreams
When she sleeps
And even in her dreams she weeps, crying out for help yet nobody seems,
Or seeks, jus a old game of hide an seek (no finder)
The prophesy.
Self fulfilling.
Cuz u must be willing to trust.
And be trusted.
And in order to co sign on someone’s dependence,
U must learn how to love unconditionally.
But what’s unconditional mean to a human being that has been
Showed nothing but abuse? shackled under the wings
Of UN pretty things, and
Multiplied by the things subtracted into life’s bean stock
Of mistakes she’s made.
He locked her up
An threw away the key!
What if her decision affected her family?
Drove by, shot 9 times
Now the tragedy lies in the soul of a battered
Spirit without a body.
………………………
Placing her chest up against the walls,
Put her ear up against the stall
Maybe she can feel alive if she counts her heart beat.
She stays alive just for her weekend visits,
Its The only contact she has with the outside world.
Staying emotionally aware of her mistakes,
But being aware that her innocents is irrelevant,
An that no freedom is coming soon!
So like a caged bird she chirps, an sings!
While everyone stands around watches her bleed!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
clabo me an kesh kesh (untitled)
My thumb ran across
The pages of peoples faces
As the palm of my right hand
Held the binder of their spine
But the beauty of their cover
Wasn't you
Stick in hand, egg shelled colored eyes
In special need...im blind
Now I read the dots
Trying to connect these spots....
But connecting dots
reconecting
recollecting
these life pictures we framed improparly
painted lifes wash colors of poverty
so holding one together isnt an option for you
when falling apart is all we are use to
super glue minded
it's like were stuck in last nights time so worry about yesterdays crime unable to rewind lifes tape deck to start over
I pressed rewind
Causing my screams
To yell at my throat
As the bullet shot backwards
Making love to my chest
I remembered the meaning
To this beat box of ones heart beat
Please don't stop singing
An if you u stop singing plz
continue the humming I can't live another day without ur remedy
an everytime my heart stops
I dial 3 numbers
screaming for help an the only person that comes to my rescue always happeneds to be you
You rescued my body
Leaving behind its outline
On my frost bitten floor
As a reminder where to land
Where to land
When I fall for you again
Landing up on all of my reasons
Simply loving you
It's hard to say
that when I held u all nite
I woke up numb matter
fact I think I had
frost bite
I laid out all the reasson why I loved you 3of
them reminded me of why we never made it threw
but tha other 5 five kept me high enough to not realize what loving u can do to the human body
I subtracted the lack of comunication all cuz of a
4letter word
kept me blind to the fact that i thought one day ud end up loving me the way I do
Communication slipped through
Our lips
Because our souls breathed
The right words
As the cracks of my hands
Failed the saphocating
To the breath of your past pain
Lets click our broken glass
To the fallen tears
Toast to your identity
Oh how I Love you
Oh how I Love you,
My unedited book...
Oh how I love you
Is that menskill
more then a fragment
of why I'm still here
Of why my tears tattoo the meaning of crystal clear
This shit is diamond cut
no more rough around the edges
ur my diamond in a rough I wouldn't trade in ur exsistance
U took my heart off eBay in a war full of falln bids
Forgiveness
an in my watch I have time to perfect this
Cuz I think your so worth it.
Oh how I love the things you do
Oh how I love to be in love with you
The pages of peoples faces
As the palm of my right hand
Held the binder of their spine
But the beauty of their cover
Wasn't you
Stick in hand, egg shelled colored eyes
In special need...im blind
Now I read the dots
Trying to connect these spots....
But connecting dots
reconecting
recollecting
these life pictures we framed improparly
painted lifes wash colors of poverty
so holding one together isnt an option for you
when falling apart is all we are use to
super glue minded
it's like were stuck in last nights time so worry about yesterdays crime unable to rewind lifes tape deck to start over
I pressed rewind
Causing my screams
To yell at my throat
As the bullet shot backwards
Making love to my chest
I remembered the meaning
To this beat box of ones heart beat
Please don't stop singing
An if you u stop singing plz
continue the humming I can't live another day without ur remedy
an everytime my heart stops
I dial 3 numbers
screaming for help an the only person that comes to my rescue always happeneds to be you
You rescued my body
Leaving behind its outline
On my frost bitten floor
As a reminder where to land
Where to land
When I fall for you again
Landing up on all of my reasons
Simply loving you
It's hard to say
that when I held u all nite
I woke up numb matter
fact I think I had
frost bite
I laid out all the reasson why I loved you 3of
them reminded me of why we never made it threw
but tha other 5 five kept me high enough to not realize what loving u can do to the human body
I subtracted the lack of comunication all cuz of a
4letter word
kept me blind to the fact that i thought one day ud end up loving me the way I do
Communication slipped through
Our lips
Because our souls breathed
The right words
As the cracks of my hands
Failed the saphocating
To the breath of your past pain
Lets click our broken glass
To the fallen tears
Toast to your identity
Oh how I Love you
Oh how I Love you,
My unedited book...
Oh how I love you
Is that menskill
more then a fragment
of why I'm still here
Of why my tears tattoo the meaning of crystal clear
This shit is diamond cut
no more rough around the edges
ur my diamond in a rough I wouldn't trade in ur exsistance
U took my heart off eBay in a war full of falln bids
Forgiveness
an in my watch I have time to perfect this
Cuz I think your so worth it.
Oh how I love the things you do
Oh how I love to be in love with you
Friday, April 30, 2010
endless memorys
I’ve died 4 times
Lived more then a few times
They say im wise
I say im beyond that
I’ve died 4 times
An dreamed of an UN known kind
Lived life as a local dime
Collecting dollars
Creating crime
I’ve hidden my image for more then 5 years
Never was really understood by my peers
Counted my tears on the pillow cases of his pillow cases
Prayed prayers my mama use to pray
An sat down with my grandma an discussed shit about being gay
Wrote stories of wonder land searching for my Alice
Told love stories like a book taking notes
Hanging from fairs wheels
Of her heart
Crying my dying fears melting my paper jus so their ears
Could hear what everyone else was missing
I’ve never really gave my self the time I was given
Use a clock without a stop watch never put new batteries in it
So my time always was ended 420
I use to smoke to clear my mind
I never was given the guidance to walk to the front of the line
I crawl behind
Placed a mask over my face an put on a front instead of being fake
I use to use my attitude to scare away the bad revenue
Never was fucked with in high school
Always was the number one topic
Like did u see was she had on short skirt?
I can almost see her tong
All the dudes liked what I was doing
I use to change my image
Ran marathons I never gave a shit about wtf he or she was on
I use to fuck this white boy
Used him as my white toy
Smoked weed until my mama came
Ditched school cuz I was sick an tired of that shit man
Then I met a dude an boy was he a hurricane
Breaking news punched in the stomach
Pain became my new life style
Never thought about shit like if this was worth my while
Purified his anger an poured kerosene on the fire
U think ima let him beat me to the wire
Biting my finger nails how do u retire
Loved my son with more then I had in me
I couldn’t afford wtf he was doing to me
Despite the outside look
I was really dien inside
Hiding under glasses jus to hide my eyes
Never opened my mouth unless he told me to speak
Never walked the streets innless he gave me the sheets
Never left the house dirty
Cuz it was lil things like that
That made him beat me until morning
I thought I found love but all I found was pain
I thought he loved me all cuz he tattooed my name
So naive to how he was playn me
Until I stood on my own feet an stop walking on my fucking tippy toes
Flat grounded fuck u only god knows
I had a convo with god last night
He gave me the power to get up an fight
I’ve been thru hell an that’s why ive died 4 times an cam back
Smiled in the devils face
Sprinting thru this devilish race
Wrote a book
Told my poetry
Really how hell taste
Now im into female’s cuz of one mans illiterateness
An now I look in the mirror wit discuss
I never wanted to be the daughter that has to tell her mama
Im gay cuz a man beat me until I was almost
Oblivious
But fuck it cuz god dealt me my cards an forgot the chips
Ima get this regardless
Lived more then a few times
They say im wise
I say im beyond that
I’ve died 4 times
An dreamed of an UN known kind
Lived life as a local dime
Collecting dollars
Creating crime
I’ve hidden my image for more then 5 years
Never was really understood by my peers
Counted my tears on the pillow cases of his pillow cases
Prayed prayers my mama use to pray
An sat down with my grandma an discussed shit about being gay
Wrote stories of wonder land searching for my Alice
Told love stories like a book taking notes
Hanging from fairs wheels
Of her heart
Crying my dying fears melting my paper jus so their ears
Could hear what everyone else was missing
I’ve never really gave my self the time I was given
Use a clock without a stop watch never put new batteries in it
So my time always was ended 420
I use to smoke to clear my mind
I never was given the guidance to walk to the front of the line
I crawl behind
Placed a mask over my face an put on a front instead of being fake
I use to use my attitude to scare away the bad revenue
Never was fucked with in high school
Always was the number one topic
Like did u see was she had on short skirt?
I can almost see her tong
All the dudes liked what I was doing
I use to change my image
Ran marathons I never gave a shit about wtf he or she was on
I use to fuck this white boy
Used him as my white toy
Smoked weed until my mama came
Ditched school cuz I was sick an tired of that shit man
Then I met a dude an boy was he a hurricane
Breaking news punched in the stomach
Pain became my new life style
Never thought about shit like if this was worth my while
Purified his anger an poured kerosene on the fire
U think ima let him beat me to the wire
Biting my finger nails how do u retire
Loved my son with more then I had in me
I couldn’t afford wtf he was doing to me
Despite the outside look
I was really dien inside
Hiding under glasses jus to hide my eyes
Never opened my mouth unless he told me to speak
Never walked the streets innless he gave me the sheets
Never left the house dirty
Cuz it was lil things like that
That made him beat me until morning
I thought I found love but all I found was pain
I thought he loved me all cuz he tattooed my name
So naive to how he was playn me
Until I stood on my own feet an stop walking on my fucking tippy toes
Flat grounded fuck u only god knows
I had a convo with god last night
He gave me the power to get up an fight
I’ve been thru hell an that’s why ive died 4 times an cam back
Smiled in the devils face
Sprinting thru this devilish race
Wrote a book
Told my poetry
Really how hell taste
Now im into female’s cuz of one mans illiterateness
An now I look in the mirror wit discuss
I never wanted to be the daughter that has to tell her mama
Im gay cuz a man beat me until I was almost
Oblivious
But fuck it cuz god dealt me my cards an forgot the chips
Ima get this regardless
Monday, April 12, 2010
so mysterious
(So mysterious)
Eyes, an a smile that shackled Ur mind!
She was into everything Ur pussy might... "like"
Creeping through the night
Gathering change for (hope) that won’t come
Anytime soon, cuz expired residue
Scraped from pipes she smoked jus to get high.....
(So mysterious)
Peeping tom into her bedroom
Tying him up dancing then robbing him for a few bucks!
Then turning tom off like a light switch
Never knew one day he’d come back for this bitch!!!!
(So mysterious)
She wked the same fucking corner, dropped her 2 yr old son off
At the other corner, an sold her pussy
For 5 dollars!
"She’s stupid some say"
But to her she was jus doing what she thought was right....
Ignorant, but so mysterious
Everything inside her boiled likes hot water,
Lil voices in her head beat her dead to where
Her thoughts whispered silent!!!!!!!!
So she kept being mysterious an never agreed to change......
(So mysterious)
She jus turned 18
An already is dien from aids!
She jus turned 18 an already has a baby!
She jus turned 18 an already had a run in wit the law!
She just turned 18 an never had a mother to slap her raw!
She just turned 18 and is addicted to drugs!!!
(So mysterious)
no kisses an huggs......
So many tears in this
so she turned to drugs......
So many times she’s prayed to god
So many whys????
An so many life’s she’s infected
So many minds she fucked yet soo many crys......
She’s 18 an yet so lost inside!
Locked in her own mental assumptions
Vased her flower an watched it grow into something she abused
For money...
Never watered her seed correctly,
Planted her life into a dirty wash
Pour bleach into her soul
Yet nobody to consol her.
Nobody to hold her,
The only love she thought was right was what these men gave her.
(So mysterious)
Her mama gave her up
At 14 told her the only thing shed be good at was
Gold digging!
and Layn on her back shown her pussy for a lil crack!
An every time she looked her son in his eyes she
Went back, way back, to the time her mama told her shed never be shit!
Pondering how a mother could say such mean things
Wondering why god dealt her cards with the devil on them
Searching threw her deck
Flipping over tricks to make sense.
But she’s so mysterious
Cuz everything shed learned has something to do wit the streets
An now that she’s dien wit aids
Shed gotta find a home for her son
So one day he don’t wake up an see that she didn’t make it
To be 21!
(So mysterious)
(Loaded)
(Pulls back )
Gun shots!!!!
Blood splatters..................
Tears hit with silent
All she wanted was some guidance
But suicide always played a huge role on her list
She was soooooo fucking mysterious!
Eyes, an a smile that shackled Ur mind!
She was into everything Ur pussy might... "like"
Creeping through the night
Gathering change for (hope) that won’t come
Anytime soon, cuz expired residue
Scraped from pipes she smoked jus to get high.....
(So mysterious)
Peeping tom into her bedroom
Tying him up dancing then robbing him for a few bucks!
Then turning tom off like a light switch
Never knew one day he’d come back for this bitch!!!!
(So mysterious)
She wked the same fucking corner, dropped her 2 yr old son off
At the other corner, an sold her pussy
For 5 dollars!
"She’s stupid some say"
But to her she was jus doing what she thought was right....
Ignorant, but so mysterious
Everything inside her boiled likes hot water,
Lil voices in her head beat her dead to where
Her thoughts whispered silent!!!!!!!!
So she kept being mysterious an never agreed to change......
(So mysterious)
She jus turned 18
An already is dien from aids!
She jus turned 18 an already has a baby!
She jus turned 18 an already had a run in wit the law!
She just turned 18 an never had a mother to slap her raw!
She just turned 18 and is addicted to drugs!!!
(So mysterious)
no kisses an huggs......
So many tears in this
so she turned to drugs......
So many times she’s prayed to god
So many whys????
An so many life’s she’s infected
So many minds she fucked yet soo many crys......
She’s 18 an yet so lost inside!
Locked in her own mental assumptions
Vased her flower an watched it grow into something she abused
For money...
Never watered her seed correctly,
Planted her life into a dirty wash
Pour bleach into her soul
Yet nobody to consol her.
Nobody to hold her,
The only love she thought was right was what these men gave her.
(So mysterious)
Her mama gave her up
At 14 told her the only thing shed be good at was
Gold digging!
and Layn on her back shown her pussy for a lil crack!
An every time she looked her son in his eyes she
Went back, way back, to the time her mama told her shed never be shit!
Pondering how a mother could say such mean things
Wondering why god dealt her cards with the devil on them
Searching threw her deck
Flipping over tricks to make sense.
But she’s so mysterious
Cuz everything shed learned has something to do wit the streets
An now that she’s dien wit aids
Shed gotta find a home for her son
So one day he don’t wake up an see that she didn’t make it
To be 21!
(So mysterious)
(Loaded)
(Pulls back )
Gun shots!!!!
Blood splatters..................
Tears hit with silent
All she wanted was some guidance
But suicide always played a huge role on her list
She was soooooo fucking mysterious!
Monday, March 29, 2010
livng inside a devil
Loving u was like the first time I learn how to tie my shoes
I know crazy comparison
But to be honest it was just that easy
Fucking u was like a wood pile of sticks an stones
I knew id trip an land in-between 2 tights with spread hips
Tasting Ur poison
Like a high I couldn’t get rid of months later I still had the drips
Pupil’s blacker then night
When I looked u in the eyes
I knew for a life time I was stuck
But so affair to this love affair
I thought romance left a stale smell in the air so I
Ate the old bag of chips and washed it down
When Ur rotten lies
An all the shit u fed me at night
Loving u was like watching the sun rise
At first it was beautiful but after awhile it started to burn my insides
Ur extensive words left my heart melting stumbling over UN used verbs
Being verbal turned into physical
I just couldn’t get a grip on things
It was like leaving u when my phone rings
Walking into a another room jus to catch a tone of things
I couldn’t stand the sweet bitter smell of her sent
It was like heaven but I was burning in hell
I was fucking the devil
Residing in jail
I couldn’t see myself in a orange jump suit
Jailed because love locked me in a cage an listen to me sing
But never once sang with me
But any who
Who would have ever knew that
Loving u was as easy an cooking soup
I watched the water boil then threw in the noodles
An watched them until threw brew
An when eating u I always burnt my Tung
But even then I just couldn’t get enough of u.
It was Ur intense sexual drive
That drove me into a few trees that night
Killing me internally
Brain fucking me mentally
I fell inside of love
An even if u tried to dig for me
good luck
I lived inside
Her cold heart
Suffering from frost bite
And dying from neglect
I once lived for her smile an would die for her touch
Now I live for a resurrection an pray
That god doesn’t turn me down
When its time to hop in a casket an start my new judgment
Loving u was jus that simple
But being wit u forever was like
Living in a huge circle.
I know crazy comparison
But to be honest it was just that easy
Fucking u was like a wood pile of sticks an stones
I knew id trip an land in-between 2 tights with spread hips
Tasting Ur poison
Like a high I couldn’t get rid of months later I still had the drips
Pupil’s blacker then night
When I looked u in the eyes
I knew for a life time I was stuck
But so affair to this love affair
I thought romance left a stale smell in the air so I
Ate the old bag of chips and washed it down
When Ur rotten lies
An all the shit u fed me at night
Loving u was like watching the sun rise
At first it was beautiful but after awhile it started to burn my insides
Ur extensive words left my heart melting stumbling over UN used verbs
Being verbal turned into physical
I just couldn’t get a grip on things
It was like leaving u when my phone rings
Walking into a another room jus to catch a tone of things
I couldn’t stand the sweet bitter smell of her sent
It was like heaven but I was burning in hell
I was fucking the devil
Residing in jail
I couldn’t see myself in a orange jump suit
Jailed because love locked me in a cage an listen to me sing
But never once sang with me
But any who
Who would have ever knew that
Loving u was as easy an cooking soup
I watched the water boil then threw in the noodles
An watched them until threw brew
An when eating u I always burnt my Tung
But even then I just couldn’t get enough of u.
It was Ur intense sexual drive
That drove me into a few trees that night
Killing me internally
Brain fucking me mentally
I fell inside of love
An even if u tried to dig for me
good luck
I lived inside
Her cold heart
Suffering from frost bite
And dying from neglect
I once lived for her smile an would die for her touch
Now I live for a resurrection an pray
That god doesn’t turn me down
When its time to hop in a casket an start my new judgment
Loving u was jus that simple
But being wit u forever was like
Living in a huge circle.
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