If I ripped my heart out my chest,
an sealed it wit no address
Would u dissect it?
By all means
My heart seems to beat funny.
So how hard it is to identify?
Known Ur head has lied on my chest,
so I know u studied my every beat........
And in all raw dis function if u touch it I tend to fall
Believing Ur sorrys once an for all
("again").........
My heart fell for Ur stupid games!
Cuz the word I love you remains Insane in a cage I've try to lock away.
"But this isn't why im unhappy today."
And I can write one poem after another
But I still remain undercover to this thing
Clogging my true feelings.
I feel like I couldn't cry enough tears to understand
My every fears in this life Long game.
And days I sit wondering where ill be in 5 yrs!
And how are my feelings going to change?
How can I fix something that remains,
Invisible to my eye sight,
And out reached by these close fisted hands
I try 2 press together an pray,
But one thing still remains
Im not happy!
So what makes janae happy?
Going back n forth Like a book I've read more then once
But can't comprehend the meanings!
Starting over from chapter 1
(greetings)
still can't remember what I read.
And the fucked up part is when I cry tears of the devil
Evilness in this smile of all my trial and tribulations
Hunt me again!
I've cried tears,
wiped finger tips parallel down my cheeks,
Looked in the mirror....
"god how I hate what I see"
Sad part is idk what makes me happy!
I've opened my chest let in things I can't compress
Tight fisted,
I've held back emotions
But fact is I've bottled more then alcohol, anWet cherry blunts to disguise my UN happiness!
When the pain set on faces of ppl that try to figure janae out.......
Truth is
im not a pencil u can't erase
My pain!
Im a marker that stays clearly disguising rain drops down my face!
Coloring my world in colors Bright to the worlds eye sight.......
I feel like I don’t belong Here!!!
I feel as if I don’t sing this song,
or write this poetry!
Nobody well ever know how I really feel inside....
I've killed fragments held tears that clearly needed to be painted an hung on walls of ppls souls.
I may have made mistakes
but somewhere inside me Is a women I've yet to know,
An Im crying cuz change is all I need!
Dragging my world into pieces,
If my heart was to beat 1 last beat,
Count my every movement an write me in books
Jus so I can sit down an continue to read.
(Taking notes)
Id like to meet janae!
B4 god sweeps me off my feet an lays me 6 deep.
I want to know what makes me happy!
And how true love feels,
I wanna look in the mirror an smile
Walking miles on these 2 feet,
Snapping my fingers,
To a new beat..........
"I just wanna know what makes me happy"
Cuz I already know what makes me cry!!!
